Jun 16, 2008 at 13:41 o\clock

Plodding Along

well, work is getting a little easier. I feel like I am getting the hang of things. Need to do good this week though as the other person starts soon too.

It was me on my own kind of today, doing the shift without someone watching over me, and I feel like I did ok.

I had a pretty quiet weekend. Had to do overtime on Sat.....

anyways. not a lot else to tell. Have seen some good movies lately. Sex & the City, Narnia - Prince Caspian and also the Golden Compass. I enjoyed all three for the most part, a good bit of light entertainment/escapism to something totally different from everyday crap.

Jun 11, 2008 at 12:02 o\clock


well, work is going better so far....touch wood. I at least feel like I am understading and getting the hang of things and am getting quicker, once the confidence builds.

I got a CD of photos from the work party the other week, there are some really nice shots. Mums partner T's oldest daughter had her 2nd child yesterday at about 5.30am. They are very happy, naturally. 

I have seen some pics and bubs is very cute.

Other than that, not a lot of other news. The hike on the weekend was tiring. I had a good time though, was just nice to be around people and have friendly conversation.

The other thing, I am thinking about quite a bit lately again is J. I had a look at some pictures of him on facebook. It just gets me thinking about what happened and I look at him and wonder what made him do it, what kind of sick joy was he getting out of picking on me and upsetting/humiliating me.

Anyways, not much other news to tell. Will probably see bubs some time soon I am sure. Haven't heard from my brother in a while. Haven't heard from dad either. He is on holidays for 4 weeks. I guess I simply give up. It doesn't seem to matter how much interest I show or whatever, the way things are, just isn't going to change. Moving to Sydney eventually will probably be for the best. 

Not going hiking again this weekend. 13.5km is a lot, and it is a big day by the time you get back to the city and everything. Perhaps again at the end of the month.  

Jun 7, 2008 at 03:21 o\clock


well, so far training has gone ok. They seemed happy I was picking things up quickly. I am feeling a little bit of pressure, because they  are going to be making me compete with the other relief person to see who stays on for the next 6 months, and if she does better than me, then I will be back on the phones, which  I don't want  so much. Pretty much up until yesterday, I have been getting good feedback. I made a mistake with the vouchers we need to fill out once we have done all the account closures. Whilst not a huge error as if I had put money in the wrong account or something like that, and it was fixed by me retyping my mistakes, it delayed me about a half hour or so, and I got flustered that I had made the mistake and then delayed things further because we had to re photocopy everything. They were a little unhappy with this and I got taken aside as a heads up. The girl said, I just want to give you a heads up, because of the mistake with the vouchers - and I know you want to stay on. She just reminded me that I have competition for the job basically. She said, yes I am nailing certain things, but now they need me to do it faster. I told her I felt a bit flustered and rushed. I guess some of it was being nervous too. The day before I got complimented for finishing stuff well ahead of time, and the days before that I was being complemented for picking stuff up quickly. So it hasn't all been bad, and this error did still get fixed and was done on time. I guess she is just trying to give me advice to keep the gig long term. In my favour, I do have longer in the relief role and I am going to have a head start in training. There is a lot of different things to learn and it can get overwhelming at times. I am having to adjust very quickly.

Next week I have two days without my trainer and I do the shift myself with the other account controller.
All I can really do is treat each day as it comes and try and do my best. At the end of the day I guess it isn't the end of the world, and for the most part I have been getting good feedback from my trainer, but she is getting tougher on me now. It has only been 4 days, and as long as I don't repeat the same error, hopefully I should be fine.

Mum told me not worry about it too much and just do my best. It has been a quite stressful week, and being reminded I have competition didn't ease my stress. It was the first time I had done the vouchers myself. Yes I made mistakes in typing the information  for the voucher/form and and had to re do them but it still got done.  I have just been thinking all night "fuck, what if the other person does better". So I am stressing a little, but it has only been 4 days, and I feel like I am getting the hang of it. Now that I know exactly what to do with the vouchers, I know I wont make that misake again. It was the first time I had done them myself.

Am going to see Sex & the City today, probably like half the country. Hiking tomorrow, which I am looking forward to. 


Jun 1, 2008 at 09:59 o\clock

Did I forget to mention

I now have TV. The antenna has now been rewired and I have a perfect reception for my TV. It is so good to be able to sit out in the lounge room and watch a decent screen instead of needing to go back and forth to the bedroom while I cook and use the computer and potter around.

I am able to sleep in tomorrow which is nice.  I kind of feel like I need the break, and I am so glad I am off the phones at work finally. The TLs did say I have earnt this, so I feel kind of good and am quite pleased that I have something new to learn. It will possibly lead into an Analyst role later on down the track, which would be nice. Or even a branch role or a role in Sydney with ETrade...who knows. It has been a good confidence boost as well. Having the party on Friday night, just capped off a great day really. 

It was good to spend time with people outside of work and let our hair down so to speak. Haven't done that in a while.

Part of me misses traveling, but I am glad to have a routine and my own place and be earning. Work seems to have a really low morale, but they are pulling out all stops to address it - as they should when the satisfaction level was only like 38% recently. 

Haven't done much this weekend. I have not had any luck finding a knitting group. The walking group I wanted to join needs me to sign up on a Wednesday and I will be working. Perhaps I should look for a Yoga class again. I enjoy it and it does help my posture and make me feel better within my body.