Feeling a little lonely
Still trying to figure out why a guy would kiss one girl and then the next night come onto me and then go and kiss her in front of everyone because they are getting pushed together as a couple when i leave to go to bed for the night. He is just using her for sex and she is 19 and doesn't seem to realise this or care...I dunno. Maybe I misread things or maybe he just wanted a root and either of us would have done.
I am in Calgary today. Have left the others shopping because I am starting to feel really bored and lonely and wondering if this is for me....No one is happy about the renovations and feeling lied to about the job.
We had a meeting last night. Played cricket the other night which was really good fun, I felt comfortable and relaxed since we moved to the lodge. It is just very couply and whilst I have nothing against that and it is normal they want time together, I feel left out. I am also one of the oldest ones here and this is the first time away from home for a lot of them.....I am probably not going to want to stay for the whole Summer. Others are talking about leaving as well.....Not sure if I should head up and see if I can get a job in Vancouver for a bit before the wedding or stick it out and look again after the wedding. They have also made a mess of delivering my bank card which whilst I am stuck in the middle of nowhere is a pain in the arse and they are not helpful.
