found out from dad's wife that my mother is selling her house. We all had dinner on fucking friday for my brothers birthday and they said nothing. That is the last straw. I really do not want to see her.
I have a right not to have to put up with this emotional crap and her being a manipulative bitch. I am upset at being excluded from this and yet i somehow have a feeling that perhaps this is what i was supposedly pissed off about whilst she was waiting for her blood test results. "i don't want you here while your being like this' which at the time did not make any sense. I simply wanted her butting out of me and dad's relationship.
Jesus Christ. The woman is nuts. If it isn't going to change then I will not continue to put myself in the firing line. I am fed up with having this thrown back in my face.
I simply wanted to keep my parental relationships separate and her fucking response is to tell me i am nuts and then put words in my mouth to the rest of the family that i am upset about the house and never want to talk about it again which is rubbish.
Because ooh i blew up at my mother (a mother who i have an instinct is running around to immediate family saying i am anxious because i have to move and she is selling the house and keeping it secret.(the irony is she actuall did end up keeping it secret...i had no idea and yet somehow it is coming across as if i did).
No help or assistance for (b) because she's an awful daughter and can't handle her mum selling the house. Her writing to dad was a deliberate attempt to cause trouble. Ambiguosly worded on purpose.
You know what, all she has said to me from the minute i got in the door was 'i don't want you here if your being like this" and i had no idea wht she meant at the time. But is it possible that she was referring in some nutty way to her impression i was pissed off about them selling the house. It is like we are on completely different pages.
It is like she wants to pitt people against each other. me against (t) and dad and my brother so that everyone is always pissed off with each other and never HER. Why did she not tell me. Why the secrecy. Why does she hate me so much. Bloody conspiracy theories....if i do bring it up she will respond by telling me i already knew.
It is like she has manipulated this whole thing and that that is what i supposedly blew up at her about while she had her blood test which is utter crap.
I considered how and when to tell them when i was moving. I have always considered them WHERE the hell is any kind of consideration for my feelings. WHY am i constantly dismissed as insignificant. I was almost sick when i found out. For god sake. All i did was get off a plane and wonder why dad seemed upset when we went away.
HOW DARE SHE TELL ME I HAVE A FUCKING MENTAL ILLNESS FOR WANTING HER TO BUTT OUT> and then even after my meeting with her and the shrink she picks on me for my feelings that i brought up there as well. When (t) asks if i am eating ok she responds by saying oh, just as well i'm not asking her because then i'd be accused of interferring...hahaha. Why does she want to hurt me. I am not worthless or stupid and i deserve to be treated with respect and she DOES NOT treat me with any.
I refuse to subject myself to this. If she can't accept me for who i am and isn't interested and wants to tell the whole family I am non communicative when all i ever hear when i do open my mouth is your crazy your in your own little world. Is it any wonder I don;t want to talk to her. The fucked up thing is i still go out of my way for her. Yet when i moved she was not even going to come and see the place. How are you fucking getting home.