shit interview
Had the WORST possible interview experience ever today. I just could not answer the questions. I just could not provide examples and was giving really general answers which was annoying them. I just didn't know what there expectations were for the answers because they sounded really complex.
Arghh, guess it just wasn't meant to be. But i have another one this afternoon and i am feeling a little deflated. Doesn't put me in a positive frame for this one, which wuld be pretty good. With a publishing company and all. But anyway. Just take it each step at a time.
Lunch with dad yesterday was ok. Mum is still annoyed at me having a go at her, but it wasn't her place to say anything and it only made things worse when they weren't good as it was. She needs to understand that the tension between her and dad makes things a little difficult and of course (f) enjoys doing everything she can to stir up trouble as well because of it.
I have got what i want, but upset a lot of the family in the process, but it needed to be said. I am sick to death of it. I have nothing but crap memories of them arguing over money the whole time i was at uni and it started when i was in frigging high school.
Just once i would like things to be peaceful and not have to worry about crap like this. And now i have mum's partner going oh your one of the clan blah blah blah.
Anyways better go am at a library writing this before the next interview. Fingers crossed it goes better. At least i can be prepared for the behavioural type questions.
Just read over this and some of it sounds a little selfish, i can't help it. I felt like i needed to be. i have simply had enough of tension, maybe i create some of it myself, but there are other contributing circumstances as well. I don't think i am going to get either job i went for today, which is a bit of a bummer. I was kind of hoping to just step back into something right away, but i guess not it's not the end of the world. Hmmmph.
I am up writing this at midnight because i want some privacy and not have to worry about mum going oooh why is she on the computer all the time, what are you doing, what are you thinking eating breathing shitting. sorry but its gotten on my nerves a little. i know she cares, but she needs to let go a little. I know she's tried to do her best for me and i think she has under the circumstances but i needed peace not dad getting pissed off, is all i meant i didn't mean to upset her and (t) as much as a i did....i have written about this issue enough so i will shut up and go t bed.
goodnight.
