Change of plans!
Mood: Veri veri veri veri sleepy
May 30, 2005 at 20:31 o\clock
May 28, 2005 at 15:59 o\clock
grr
4 fuk sake! i am really upset and angry! lets think last time i sore sharron 2weeks ago! her mum sed i cud sleep i woz realli lookin 4ward 2 sein her. I just wanted 2 spend sum time with her like any bst m8s wud. So last nite woz kl havnt had 1 of r sleep ovas 4 ages used 2 hav em every week. Anyway woke up slept in a bit got up watched tv and talked and stuff. The plan woz 2 stay in hav a bit of a laugh wait till bout 3 then go in her pool! Ok well i have a bf as u all know but i spend lots of time wid my m8s aswell. If i c him i c him after bein out wid m8s or wen im not seeing them. The reason 4 this is bcoz i care about my mates i dnt wanna ditch them and they r as much as important as luke. Well anyway dan txtx her askin 4 her 2 go 2 poole coz he is bored and has no money 2 get to hers. well oviously she wants 2 c him although there gunna spend the whole of 2moz and nite 2gether. so yeh i had no money 2 get 2 poole she sed she wud giv me money but i h8 takin money of people so i got picked up so yeh well about 2 cycle all the way 2 sum where lol
May 27, 2005 at 16:23 o\clock
Re exam
ok re sum questions were realli easy others not so i no i got 1 wrong lol although me and chloe put the same stupid answer lol the question woz summit like : Wot r the doors that divide the 2 rooms in the orthodox church lol! didnt have a clu guess wot i put lol the dividers lol but chloe did 2! anyway after caught the bus wid chloe and loz 2 poole 2 c every1! went shoppin 4 a bit Zack spent loads! um then every1 went bak 2 robs part from chloe who went home bout 1hr b4! i went home bcoz i have gym l8er and quite tired so waana rest as i have it 4 3hrs! wel spoke 2 sharron on da phone im happy now coz shes going camping on sunday probs which is gd now so i dnt need 2 woz about not sleepin! i mite b sleepin at her house 2nite after gym but all depends on wot mood her parents r in will probs b a no! well realli hot its realli hot 2day wanted 2 go 2 da beach or swimming but didnt happen! well going surfing wid rob in the summer and hes takin me shoppin hehehe!! ok well gunna go now tryin 2 reload sims on my comp which dnt seem 2 b workin !!
May 26, 2005 at 23:49 o\clock
No exams 2day!
I had no exams 2day! well woz gunna meet up wid dan then go c sharron wid dan and luke. im sorri dan i had no money 2 get 2 hers! So i got a lift 2 lukes. went out on his bikes 4 a bit. Then watched cat in the hat lol! um yeh thats bout it! Nice 2 spend time wid him and met up wid Tom 2! well i dnt think i can sleep at sharrons on sunday! i have been invited 2 sum1s party and i really wanna go! it duznt clash wid sharrons party coz it starts at about 6. i do feel really guilty 2 sharron bcoz i dnt think dan is im not nor luke. Well she can invite mel w and sum her skool m8s instead! any other day sharron i will sleep wen im free. Its realli diff 2 decide coz i do wanna sleep but i woz invted 2 a party and 4got it woz ur bday so sed yes! but i will still cum 2 ur party ok and if u want i cud sleep sat nite instead! up 2 u! HAPPY BDAY AS ITS UR BDAY 2DAY!! anyway gotta goxxx re exam 2moz need sleep
May 25, 2005 at 22:46 o\clock
2day!
well 2day had english lit exam! woz not 2 bad only 1 which woz hard woz best words as i woz away for the poem that they asked the question on so wrote a load of rubbish! After went home and then went out 2 poole went swimming wid Alyse Dan and there m8! Wetn round poole 4 a bit after wid Dan woz in hmv 4 ages :) Then dan went 2 his m8s and i met up wid Luke. Stayed in poole 4 45mins then got da bus 2 his 2 put his bike 2gether and meet up wid his m8 Tom. Sorri tom 4 callin u weird da other day ok u were drunk!! Anyway woz standing around 4 about 1hr waitin 4 dem 2 add new parts 2 his bike! Then i went on his mums bike lol and went 2 poole wid Tom and Luke and i actually kept up wid dem hehe Luke woz finding it hard 2 keep up wid me and Tom and he rides the most i neva do nor duz Tom reali! ok then met there m8s went 2 da sk8 park 4 a bit! Then his m8 took his lighter off him and exploded it and took his tabbaco off him 2 stop him smokin! he needs 2 quit he found it hard 2 ride bcoz he smokes 2 much l8ly! He got all stressy and kinda realli upset me! I havnt eva seen him this bad b4! i woz kinda scared! well i spoke 2 1 of his random m8s at da sk8 park 4 a few mins bout it and he kinda just sed say 2 him giv up smokin of loose me! but i neva sed it bcoz i dnt have the guts 2 fo it bcoz i realli do love him and if he choose smokin i wud just die! I realli want him 2 giv up smokin but i dnt wanna loose him ova it. It wasnt just that though wen he woz desperatly needin a fag and realli stressy he kept sayin life sucks and crap and i dnt wanna live long! i sed dnt think like that u have loads of peeps that care 4 u and i love u and imagine how i wud feel if u wernt around. Then he started sayin o we will b way ova each other by then. That kinda hurt me bcoz atm im so happy i love him and hen he thinks all negitive thoughts. Well anyway he walked me bak 2 da bus stop and by then everything woz fine. Spending the whole day with him 2moz which will b gd bcoz we kinda need 2 sort stuff out and just spend sum time 2gether just me and him. Then meant 2 meet dan at 2 and go 2 sharrons but dunno if im gunna now coz i realli do need 2 spend time wid luke and dnt realli wanna hav 2 go all da way 2 broadstone. blog l8er xx
May 24, 2005 at 13:44 o\clock
1st exam German listening
ok well not dun much 2day cat brought a bloody bird in da house no1 woz in it had a broken wing so i took it 2 da vets down da road dats about it. Well have an exam in exactly 1 hr have 2 leave in 30mins. well im gunna fail it anyway h8 german r probs get a perfetic D 4 it owell cant b botherd wid it the onli subject i aint revised! i did a tiney bit on sam learning but dats about it. Its a listening 1 so will b multipal choice so even if i dnt hav a clue wot there on about i will still b able 2 ut sumit down. Lukes broken his bike if any1 has a BMX 4 sell plz let me know so i can tell him! Miss him loads. Weather dnt look 2 gd 4 sharrons bday but owell im sure it wnt rain all day sunday! well a couble days ago i felt total crap but i feel gr8 now and its all thnx 2 luke. Sore him yesterday afternnoon at his house he put a smile on my face and realli cheered me up which i needed coz i looked like a moody cow lol!! Everything in my world just seems 2 b goin well atm i dnt know whether its coz no more skool, Luke or sumthin else. Maybe its all of it lol! Well i bet u r end up havin a massive rgument wid miss Buhl wen i go 2 skool 4 bout 45mins! Will b gd though get 2 c Hannah Ruth Nicki!! OMG i found out the truth about Chris my x! He did cheat on me but not wid a girl lol! Yes hes gay! but i have 2 thank him realli coz other wise i wudnt have Luke! Chris is depressed and on drugs as far as i know rite now but i think he has himself 2 blame 4 his life realli. I mean he had so much help from Luke and his parents adam and all his m8s but he thinks no 1 cares. Anyway i am waiting 4 my mum 2 get home from her m8s 2 giv me a life 2 skool how fun lol! so tlk l8er!
May 23, 2005 at 18:01 o\clock
At lukes!
Mood: Happy
Ok went 2 bmouth this morning wid mum. woz ameant 2 go swimming wid da sunday crew but mum wudnt let me as i have an exam 2moz! she wanted me 2 get me shoes 4 da prom and stuff 4 a wedding! well she gos and takes me in the most expensive shops so yeh ended up gettin shoes dat cost £60 and onli gunna wear dem 2wice well i tld her not 2 buy dem but she sed the fit well lol owel he money not mine!! Well i asked her 2 go 2 lukes and she actually sed yes she wudnt let me go swimming but let me go 2 lukes weird but owell! Yeh still at his cokkin a pizza both r faves ham and pineaple yummy!! ok well got 2 go now blog weneva!
May 22, 2005 at 21:13 o\clock
Just feel like crap 4 no reason realli
Mood: crap
May 21, 2005 at 21:24 o\clock
Boring crap day
2 sum up my day umm crap,boring and hungova! well got up at 11 then played ps2 and on comp! then txt sharron 4 a bit! um then got so bored i thought i wud get my bike out so randomly went 4 a ride on the heath not gd wen u have a hangova! then got home wen on comp! had tea! Then Luke came online! His x gf is goin through this mad depresion atm! so keeps phonin him at like 2 in da mornin! Problem for me being she wants him bak! he says he dnt want her bcoz we both love each other. Im just realli woz started crying bcoz i love him so much i have neva love any 1 this much b4! ok i have had a number of bfs but Lukes special! dnt no wot it is we have so much in commen. Ok thinkin its onli 3 weeks dnt sound long but then say its nearli a month then sounds longer. we have seen each other every other day sinse ok u mite say thats stupid and get bored but no its not like that every day i c him i find it hard 2 say gd bye! I do love him and its not lust. I trust him not 2 do anythin that will effect us and he trusts me i wud b heart broken if anythin happens bcoz of this Amy girl! That sums my day up! onli thing im lookin 4ward 2 is nxt week Sharrons party shud b gr8 me dan luke r sleepin at sharrons her mum sed luke can although dan and luke hav 2 sleep in a diff room but thats understandable my parents wudnt even let him sleep. Well goin 2 bmouth as usual 2moz then after seeing luke. Dnt have any exams till Tuesday and thats just a german 1 which lasts 30mins so thats ok! gunna fail german anyway! Then Wed i think i have english lit and geog or geog thurs not 2 sure. Anyway gunan lie down 4 a bit need 2 sort my head out !
May 21, 2005 at 13:51 o\clock
Sharrons Party date and time 4 def!!
Sharrons Party date has been chnaged is now next SUNDAY 2PM!! This is the tme 4 def! She sed can u bring booze! And dnt 4get ur swimming stuff! she lives at 6B Highpark road Broadstone! So instead of us lot going 2 bmouth plz go 2 sharrons party! she realli wants it 2 b gd and keeps sayin it wnt so plz guys cum make her day one 2 remember!
Sharron i am sori we keep fallin out and rguin! However we havnt seen much of each other l8ly which is a gd thing bcoz we just needed 2 b seperated 4 a week or 2 u no wot i meen! Well dnt woz hunn ur party will b gr8 ok i prommiss got 2 get i a prezzie lol!!
May 21, 2005 at 00:01 o\clock
Im still slightly drunk
Mood: Very sleepy
went 2 lukes 2day found my way there and got off at the right stop yay! well he took me on this walk wid his dog grrr hes obsest my fish lol so basically took me 2 rockly sands got so muddy! anyway i 4gice him he clean my shoes wen we got bak 2 his lol! Ok l8er on got a lift from his mum 2 da Party at da beach! Started crap as me and luke and his grumpy m8 tom waited 4 every1 4 ages. I onli new 1 other person Alex but i think he went 2 a diff end of yr 11 beach party! K well peeps turned up i kinda new sum peeps sum were erins m8s ans sum from other beach partys and met sum new peeps! So then it got gd loads and loads of booze!! Problem then began i kinda drank 2 much! I kinda puked up soz 4 that info lol!! Well bless luke he looked after me helped me 2 walk!! Well then me and luke went 4 a walk 2 help me sober up we then retunred and most peeps had gon and it woz becoz these random perfetic CHAVS decided 2 turn up and start a fight so they ran away from them! so we had 2 walk from shore road 2 sandbanks i cud hardly walk. Got there i basically colapsed on a bench i felt so crap. Didnt know where every1 woz just remember a girl helpin me tryin 2 giv me water! I must admit i have neva rememberd this much after bein drunk b4 which is a gd sign i guess! Then the chavs must of gave up so every1 returned. However then there woz a house party! Most people went 2 it but Luke had work 2moz and i had 2 go home so we just kinda tied 2 get away from da beach ! well random DRUNK people who were at rr party came tlk 2 me lol!! ok well thats realli bout it! well wot i remember anyway !!
May 20, 2005 at 00:21 o\clock
Last day of skool 4eva apart from exams yay!
Well 2day it woz r last day eva of skool! I neva thought i wud b upset 2 leave bcoz i have so many problems and issues at that skool! However we had a litergie and made me think there were sum gd bits and im realli gunna miss sum of my m8s who i probs wnt keep in contact with Ruth,Claire,Hannah,Charlotte,Sammy,George etc! Also its still sad coz i wnt c Loz and Chloe as often but i know 4 def im gunna keep in contact wid them and still c them alot as there my 2 main bst m8s at that skool! I wll still keep in contact with Kat 4 a while as she lives 5mins away from me and in the summer im sure we will meet up lots! Thats the onli reason im gunna miss it bcoz of my m8s but then agen i am so happy 2 get out of skool. Will meen no more DTs no more arguments with teachers or other people eg:Amy Platt !! wow that woz funni last day thought i wud get my own bak after 4 yrs so i turned round and called her a Caker! and then guess wot she won the most chav bling bling award omg that woz the funni moment eva she didnt look 2 happy but me Loz and Chloe cudnt stop laughin!! Ok this is gunna sound perfetic but i will even miss Bradly and Paul. I have known Bradly sinse yr 6 . We had a love h8 relationship eva sinse the day we met. And paul well hes a short dude lol every1 likes paul !! Anyway after the exams im gunna start a whole new life gettin a job and stuff gunan b different but i am lookin 4ward 2 it.
Well after skool as we finished at 12 loz came 2 mine 4 a bit. Then we went 2 Poole were longer there than expected needed 2 get summit. Then went 2 bmouth 2 meet wid Chris and Zack. Got free ribena yay lol! Then David my MR K came which i woz happy about coz hes a laugh! Followed by sum other people zacks m8s. We then went 2 c Star warz believe it or not i hadnt seen any of the others lol! mite sound stupid but hey i wasnt the onli 1 and i understood it woz quite gd actually although i had David sleepin on my shoulder! aww bless him hes so kl and funny its like ive known him ages yet we hav onli been tlkin realli sinse last october on msn and onli met him twice. Hes a gd m8 hes gr8! anyway 2moz hopefully goin 2 c Luke woz goin 2 a beach party but dnt think that will happen now 2 b honest coz of the weather 1ce agen i still have a whole big bottle of stella in my room! anyway need my sleep blog 2moz!
May 17, 2005 at 23:43 o\clock
Dedicated 2 a close m8 i luv 2 bits!!
Sinse yr 9 i haev experienced people in my yr picking on me slapped on the face things thrown at me pushed in a bush etc! also everyday WORDs thats r sed! Bullys oviously hav mentl probs or have probs of there own and takin it out on u! ive just had 2 accept it as part of my daily life and just think how luky i am 2 have such gr8 m8s! If i here a m8 is benin picked on or hurt in sum way i will always b there 4 them. They just wanna makle people that r happy have rottonm lives bcoz they hav them themselves so they want fights or spread roomers which me is not acceptable! u shud not let them put u down if it means tellin sum1 then do it shows ur strong and dnt need 2 fight bak! any1 out there who bullys any1 duz not deserve 2 have any m8s or do well in life!
luv u hunn dnt let anyythin hurt u and remember ur the 1 whos guna do well in life there probs end up with a crap job and no future 2 look 4ward 2 u have !
May 17, 2005 at 22:02 o\clock
Im alive!!
wow i had trampolining and i did a double front somersault and have no broken bones lol!! theres no lead up 2 it its the matter of going 4 it and hoping u dnt die! well i had the whole class watchin me coz onli 1 other int he group can do it (Phil) sharrons x but he woznt there. Well as far as me and Sharron shes gone of in 1 of these 13 yr old strops bcoz she cant get her own way and i cant go 2 her bday. i sed sorri but she duznt care thing is though gcses r 4 life a party is fun and gr8 but thats 4 1 nite onli not 4 life! i sed i cud go out wid her another day 2 make up 4 it but nope she dnt care! owell she will c wen she reaches 15/16. im not in the wrong as per usual and offerd 2 make it up 2 her but basically she woz tellin me 2 piss off in her own words! well not gunna let her get 2 me this time people will start 2 realise she lies alot and makes ur life stressful! well chloe and loz hav already!! owell enough is enough i wnt say anythin more about her i cud but that wud b bitchin and im not like that!!! this is as far as i go! ok then blog l8er revision 2 b dun!!
May 17, 2005 at 17:23 o\clock
Party kinda messed up!
Mood: angry!!
May 15, 2005 at 22:21 o\clock
Sunday!! da bst day of the week!
Mood: Smiling
Listening to: Brain stew - Greenday
Well got a lift in2 bmouth. den got there early so decided 2 buy GREEN DAY - INTERNATIONAL SUPERHITS! which loz got me in 2!! well then me and josh decided 2 go buy alcohol so josh got it den we went 2 sit under the pier! well had a private convo wid josh den went 2 c the others in the gardens by then i woz drunk!! well yeh anyway sam came down l8er! well i woz goin 2 meet luke in Poole so Sam gave me and josh a lift in his car or shud i say his red car lol! actually i must admit he is quite a cool driver well the music not so gd and me and josh were takin the mick lol! well Sam went 2 pic upthis girl from the trainstation and he woz so chattin her up!! well i got out at tower park and got da bus 2 poole! Well i had 2 go 2 the sk8 park wid him 2 c his m8s as he woz bikin but i met sum1 there Rachel from my skool shes kl! well messed around realli 4 a bit met sum new peeps who r cool! o found the perfect guy 4 chloe but he woz taken! Ok well me and Luke r gettin on realli well its onli been exactly 2 weeks from 2day but it seems so much longer probs coz we c each other loads! i dnt no wot it is but we just click! we hav so much in commen quite freaky realli. I hope we last bcoz he isnt like any other guys ive been out with! ok there woz Nick he treated me well but we neva realli sore each other. But luke duz realli treat me well and helps me wid any probs i have and always puts a smile on my face even if im nearli in tears! Ive been waitin 2 find the right guy 4 along time an di finally hav him!
May 14, 2005 at 17:31 o\clock
I GOT THE JOB!!!
I GOT THE JOB YAYAY well the apprentiship! i found out exactly 30 people all went 4 it and i got it!! omg omg hehe! u will get money hehehe!!! I cant believe it though i know sum of u mite not think its the greatest of jobs but 2 me it is becoz all i ever wanted 2 do wot work in da travel industry and this is just the 1st stage and my 1st job!! o and not 4getin i get 10% of my holidays and free travel insurence 4 my family! well its a 2 yr course! Just cant believe i got it out of 30 people plus ive neva realli had a job so not realli much experience apart from my work experience. Plus i dnt need any GCSES yay! I had 2 take about 19 tests 2day Maths Geography and English Spellin Practical and other stuff! woz quite nervous especially wen it came 2 maths lol but i oviously passed it!! so im now very happy! beach party aint on the weather is bad but who cares coz lukes cumin 2 mine yay blog l8er
May 13, 2005 at 23:31 o\clock
GYM!!
Mood: Better than earlier
May 13, 2005 at 17:17 o\clock
Long day!
started off i ran away at 6am. Im alays being insulted by parents 4 god sake! anyway long rgument ran away in tears freezin cold 2hrs 30mins till skool veri tired basically got a bus 2 skool and just sat on a bench at da shops 4 a while. um went 2 skool had a crap depressin day 1ce agen. then i got a txt from my um sayin sorri and crap so i 4gave her and went home as its far 2 cold 2 b on da streets and i dnt want 2 b any more depressed than i am now. Although we aint talkin. Well onli thing i hav 2 look 4ward 2 is da party 2moz i wana get drunk out my head. Um 2day hav gym hav 2 go mums makin me shit scared coz i got chucked out last week. o and have 2 c Sharron. I dnt realli care just no every1 will luv her h8 me as ususal wen we eva fall out. owell dnt care thats life. went 2 loz house yesterday she tought me how 2 play feeder on da guitar yay! then went 2 c inspector calls veri borin but funni i guess. Um got stoned apparently after um! anyway cba blog l8erxx
May 12, 2005 at 12:18 o\clock
At skool in Maths
Mood: happier 4 1ce
