Weblog of Melissa

Apr 29, 2005 at 23:29 o\clock

No skool!!

by: devilish_princess

Well 2day we had a staff training day :) so i met Luke in Poole! we walked around poole a bit he woz stoned lol so went 2 buy a  pick and mix from the cheap famous shop Wilko lol! Well then decided we were gunna go bak 2 his house which woz very fun lol! we played his ps2 i lost my loads of this shooting game lol i didnt hav a clue wot 2 do but believe it or not i got a high score on BMXin lol! then went and watched love actually although we didnt actually watch it lol! umm o yes his mum came in i woz so scared i woz just like hi god she woz scary lol! then went bak 2 poole went on msn den had 2 go home! we got on so well held hands got realli close! well gunan c wot happens lol! but things r lookin gd!

Apr 28, 2005 at 23:23 o\clock

Cheating!!!

by: devilish_princess

Grrr well guess wot ive just found out Chris cheated on me at the same time he went and had sex with sum bloody slag both SOBER!!! Well now im not botherd because me and luke were gunna take it slow bcoz we didnt wanna hurt Chris but stuff him he deserves it hes 1 big attention seeker saying he woz gunna commit suicide bcoz of me and makin me scared ova nuthin! well his so called gf although Luke sed its bull shit has a child apparently o and there moving in 2 gether! well he can do wot he bloody well likes!  Well im seeing luke 2moz long weekend get 2moz off skool sat sun and monday yay! skools been total crap people or shud i say chavs think there so cool 2 start takin da piss outa u spreading roomers aww bless them the joy they must have talkin about me lol hurt at the time now i look back i just think wot childish little kids!! Well Party Nxt Saterday hopefully wnt rain as its at the beach it shud b amazin loads of people loads of booze my 16th bday!! also 2 celebrate alyses 2!! cant wait! hopefully lukes m8 is bringing his van full of booze if he has the money fingers crossed lol if not there will still b loads anyway so hopefully every1 will get drunk and just have a gd time  So dnt 4get Saterday 7th May 7.00pm Sandbanks beach! o and bring booze lol!! 

Apr 24, 2005 at 17:29 o\clock

!!

by: devilish_princess

Mood: Tired
Listening to: Ebay song

Well this weekdn hasnt been 2 bad! Well friday had Gym as usual Dan turned up 2 c Sharron so we went in 1hr l8 owell we do 3hrs anyway! Saterday Sharron came round mine we went 2 Poole 2 Meet Chris and Adam sat in a car park 4 ages me trying 2 stand on a sk8 board very amusing i hav 2 say lol! Um well i broke my aim 2 not drink till me bday but owell! Umm came bak then went Camping lol! Yes me camping lol! Well Alyse Dan Erin Mike Alex Rob were already there so everything woz set up and Alex and da guys were trying 2 build a camp fire! Well then Chris, Loz and Zack came! umm nuthin realli interesting happend untill Dans sis and her m8s came and brought Joints! Um Alex had a bit 2 much as it woz his 1st real time realli o and Mike got a bit sick but woz k! umm Sharron and Zack got drunk and started having cartwheel contests lol um basically thats woz da main bits of the night! Umm nxt Morning Loz woz already up and restarted the fire all by herself Well dun loz lol!!  umm Dan me and Alyse then got up followed soon after by Sharron! Well loz decided 2 give Rob Zack Alex and Chris a wake up call but they wernt very happy bout it but Chris got up anyway! Rob got up as he had work! O Alex woz the last 1 up lol but hey they pulled the tent down on him so he didnt realli have any choice than 2  get up! Wow we found the Marshmellows and cooked dem on da fire! Well went bak 4 like 30mins 2 clean up grrr mud horrid thing! Then went 2 bmouth wid Chloe Dan Alex and Alyse however i left early coz it wiz cold and am realli tired onli 3hrs sleep!

Apr 21, 2005 at 00:36 o\clock

Skool day agen!

by: devilish_princess

Mood: Hyper

Boring skool! Well i got home and i had a interview 4 an apprentiship ova the phone! Yes ova the phone! very weird! Well she said if we are interested we will phone you back and they did!! So i now have 2 go and have another interview with them on Tuesday!  im actually quite scared as the only interview i have had is 4 college! O and not 2 mention i have 2 take a maths and english test there grr English ok Maths well lets just say thats my weekness! Anyway my friend who i havnt seen in a year came to mine which woz a surprise aww luv u lauren! Well then me and lauren went 2 rachels followed by Olivias then Beckys-Johns and Elliots! So a gd evening really! Well we all were ameant 2 going 2 joshes so called amazing party on saterday but he tld us he aint havin it anymore although he is just uninvited us so he gets more alcohol 4 himself! Josh is a really gd m8 and really caring normally! I dnt think Chloe or Alyse wud agree wid me there! Owell instead we r all going camping and no josh isnt cumin! Well it should be a laugh! I just want to tell every1 not 2 wrorry I HAVE GIVEN UP DRINKIN ALCOHOL! But not including my beach party on the 7th May and hopefully Alyse is having a joint party wid me depends if she can go! Well Mike sed hes givin me 3 alco pops 4 me bday so dats all r drink!

Apr 18, 2005 at 22:25 o\clock

Monday!

by: devilish_princess

Mood: Happy!

As u can guess it woz a normal boring day at skool! nuthin exciting! txt peeps all through english lol! Well after skool woz ameant 2 have hair cut but didnt went swimming with erin alyse dan alex rob zack mike instead! Stayed in there 4 ages still didnt manage 2 get rob down grrr lol!!  Then went 2 get sumthin 2 eat well they did anyway! umm meh nuthin else happend realli but woz kl 2 c every1 agen

Apr 16, 2005 at 22:10 o\clock

Weekend

by: devilish_princess

Ok well started crap at 2 go 2 poole wid mum o and left in the car and nealry died as it woz baking hot!! went home got da bus 2 erins! felt like crap no longer goin out wid chris! Then went 2 da park kinda just sat out and listened music but l8er sum1 sed sumthin which made me kinda jelous but more hurt than anything else. Went of and spoke 2 dan 4 a bit which helped came bak felt happier so went played football wid rob and alyse which lead me and alyse nearly killed by rob lol! well now at home dnt feel amazinly gr8 meh! hav this horrid feeling inside yet i dnt know wot!

Apr 15, 2005 at 17:15 o\clock

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by: devilish_princess

Listening to: Mr Brightside the Killers

Well 2day started of bad fell asleep in Geography ad missed everythin then my science teacher started givin me lectures about how i shudnt give up and how well i will do which wnt happen hes sed that millions of times.  The thing is i dnt like 2 anser him bak as he is 1 of the coolest teachers we have its just he is not like a normal teacher and u dnt exactly learn much in his lesson either! Well went 2 maths nearly fell asleep then 2 but managed 2 get sum work dun! Lunch went 2 class room has discussions wid Chloe and Loz 2 try and decide wot im gunna do bout Chris and Danny but didnt get anywhere! Ummm then had tech which kinda cheered me up as it woz an easy lesson making cheesecake lol yuck h8 it but hey i cudnt fall asleep woz on my feet 4 2hrs and me and sammy were racing 2 finish which ended up us both had millions of washin up!!  Owell well me and Sharron r ok but ive decided im gunna speak 2 her l8er wen i c her just tellin her y i get upset sumtimes and if she has reasons 4 getting hurt by me then she can tell me 2 as thats the only way i think anythin is eva gunna change and believe me i h8 fall outs and rguments! Well these webblogs just seem 2 get more boring and more about my life ! everyday but weekend now so hopefully everythin will b mor interesting! Well i dnt no wot i wud do with out my bst m8s Alyse Sharron Loz Chloe Erin Dan who i can speak 2 and trust and all my other m8s who go on Sunday!!

Apr 14, 2005 at 19:16 o\clock

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

by: devilish_princess

y is it that wen u do so much 4 a m8 help them, Leave when u dnt have 2 bcoz there b on there own or if there ill leave ur other m8s they go and treat u like crap and friends with u wen they want sumthin or bcoz there not aloud out if im not wid her!Even the stupid little thing she gets in a stress with u  sumtimes even lies 2 u not just 2 me and always wants her own way and she always gets it!!! yet when she decides 2 b bst m8s shes all innocent and sweet especially wen we r with other people.  And 4 an example i sent an email 2 every1 about a party and she sed o i cant read it it wnt let me read it so tell me so i tld her the important bits as it woz 2 long 2 send by msn ad she goes o fine then i take it u dnt wanna invite me and blocks u!!! Yet i consider her 2 b 1 of my bst m8s.  I know shes having sum family problems atm but this has been going on 2 long!  It just hurts 2 think  that u do so much 4 her shes ur bst m8 and she treats u like dirt wen she wants 2 and like a bst m8 wen she wants sumthin or 2 go out! wud u consider her 2 b a bst m8??? Well at the mo she isnt talkin 2 me although its so childish and perfetic ova a bloody email which she cant read! owell i bet u by 2moz she wud of snapped outa it and act like nuthins just happend and r just accept it as usual! Well slightly annoyed i cant b doing with this i still havnt heard from Danny so if u read this Danny im dam scared!!

Apr 13, 2005 at 22:29 o\clock

YAY!

by: devilish_princess

ok now im kinda happy im aloud out sunday ok thats 1 of my probs sorted out and get 2 c chris and every1! Well as far as Dan i aint heard from him!

Apr 13, 2005 at 17:45 o\clock

Life just gets harder!

by: devilish_princess

Mood: Empty
Listening to: Coldplay- Scientist

Well basically i dnt no wot 2 do! Danny keeps going on about how much it is my folt but the problem is is hes saying o bcoz of u my lifes fucked up and i self harm and stuff! thats really hurt me bcoz if he duz anythin stupid im gunna feel guilty and wnt hav a clue wot 2 do! I havnt even dun anything wrong anyway just bcoz i dumped him! But thats life! Ive tried to sort this all out phoning him emailing him txting him but he really duz not care 1 bit! so he h8s me sayin o u dnt care about me i do all that and he just really duznt appriciate 1 bit! So im sitting here feeling rather guilty stressed and  emotional all in 1.  If i leave it he will have a go at me and take everything out on me 4 not caring but wen i try and help him he just duznt wanna no! wot the hell am i goin 2 do! i hav a bf chris and i dnt want him 2 get all this shit as he has enough of it already! I just wanna no wot the hell duz he want me 2 do i really care about him he just duznt believe me. I still like him hes a gr8 m8 i didnt want it 2 end out like this and we went even going out that long! If i didnt care about him i wudnt b writing this now.  I admit i still have 2nd thoughts now and again about dumping him but ive moved on and have Chris.  I hope sum how Danny will find this and read it bcoz i want 2 show him i do still care and even my close friends no that - Chloe and loz.  O and im a bit woz bout my bst m8 Sharron or shud i say muppit hehehe soz sharron just had 2 say that! Well not goin 2 go in2 her probs coz its nun of my buisness but just 2 let u no im always here 4 u woteva happens ur my lil sis hehehe! o and loads of thnx 2 Alyse my petal thnx hunn its really helped u know wot im talkin bout!

Apr 13, 2005 at 01:14 o\clock

Midnight

by: devilish_princess

Mood: tired but happy

Well im talkin 2 kasper or shud i say ross lol! its 12.00 lol owell well basically im now even in a bigger stress bcoz my x dan sed hes self harming bcoz of me which makes me feel awful an guitly but i try phoning him and he tells me 2 get lost so wot else can i do?? well kaspers cheered me up :)

Apr 12, 2005 at 21:19 o\clock

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

by: devilish_princess

Mood: Bloody Crap

Im now very pissed off! Im grounded 4 2 week just bcoz i can't find my contacts o gr8! o skool is crap got english hw in 4 2moz dnt have a clue wot 2 do so looks like im gunna get a DT 4 dat! Ummm a bloody idiot called Steven Foot said 2 me that if i dnt take Pot on thursday hes guna fuk me well that aint guna neva happen! Well bcoz im grounded i cant c my bf or m8s! although i am thinkin of runnin away on Sunday bcoz there is no way im gunna spend all my weekend inside! Although i will think about that nearer the time!  Well thats sums up how im feeling! o and parents keep rguin o look there doing it now o bloody gr8! 4god sake y cant things b how they used 2 b neva any stress. Well im fed up wid peeps always takin da piss outa me at skool and stuff! the problem is wen i start gettin angry its over the top so i tend now 2 just keep quiet. Well they always call me the same thing so im gunna try do sumit about it although its gunna take a while 2 loose it but stuff it. Even if i try and ignore it it still gets 2 me.

Apr 11, 2005 at 22:53 o\clock

Skool!!

by: devilish_princess

Well 2day started of crap had 2 get outa bed early 2 go 2 skool!!  Well as u wud guess skool woz stressful and boring! Well Chris made it better as i woz txting him the whole time and he phoned me at lunch and break!  Well Rob phoned me last nite asking if i wanted to go bowling so i invited every1! most peeps didnt go bcoz of art exam and a skool day! Well i managed to get out the house and go! Well there were onli 2 gurls Me and Robs x ! Shes kl! I got 2 c Chris yay Mike Alex and others new people lol!  Well Chris wudnt even let me buy a drink 4 myself lol so i spent no money at all THNX CHRIS!!  Well after me, Chris, Mozer and Adam walked 2 Slots but Mozer thinkin hes so kl decided 2 set of a French Banger right under the surcurity camera! Well i woz just standing there  scared as the security guard came and took him While me Chris and Adam just stood there! Then we had 2 follow them up 2 the sercurity room quite interesting really neva new there woz 1 lol well he got let go but has been band from towerpark 4 3months! owell its his stupid folt i did tell him not 2 !!!  Then got Kfc thats about it really! Well i have the dentist 2moz so will b in pain as getting brace tightend owell means i dnt have 2 go into skool till about 11.30 yay!!

Apr 10, 2005 at 20:45 o\clock

Skool 2moz!!!! grrrrr

by: devilish_princess

Well 2day i met Chris in Poole 2 meet him#1 i woz kinda nervous as i didnt really know him!  Well we walked around Poole talkin about things and gettin 2 know each other more! Then we decided to go to Bmouth 2 c every1!! Nick came down! Well every1 Alyse Erin Nick Chloe and Josh sat on the grass in the gardens and me and Chris were laying down lol well then josh decided he wanted beer so he decided 2 c if he cud get served! me and chris didnt think he wud! but he did! Well went bak 2 gardens had a bit Chris konda got drunk and i got slightly typsy! owell then me and chris decided to go off on r own.  Well we are now going out! i think Danny is still really pissed off with me but i sed im realli soz. I just wish he wud get the picture that although i still consider him as a gd m8 we rnt gunna work out and ive moved on and now going out wid Chris! i dnt no y its just the minute i sore chris 2day i thought wow i really like this guy! I just dnt no wot 2 do with danny the problem is i didnt do anythin 2 hurt him i didnt cheat on him either and the thing is we only went out 1week! owell skool 2moz o gr8 fun all that will do is cause stress stress and moer stress wid exams etc! o well have to go revise now blog soon!!

Apr 10, 2005 at 00:08 o\clock

Da party and 2day!!!

by: devilish_princess

Mood: Happy but dreadin skool Monday
Listening to: Nuthin on mums comp

Well cant really say much about the beach party umm Well had a fire umm loz got drunk and alyse umm i got in wid a guy called james who i dnt even know wot looks like bcoz it woz pitch black lol!! owell Well thats all i remember um ive been tld danny woz there and apparently i fell asleep lol owell im now neva gunna touch alcohol agen apart from at mine alyse and joshes party!! duz nay1 know if if u drink more then u will b able 2 take more???  bcoz it really duz get on my nerves wen every1 can drink apart from me! Well anyway 2day woke up chloe went hom at a bit of a headache went out got a prom dress and new computer desk! umm went to towerpark met sharron erin alyse went 2 poole met up wid Dan went 2 sharrons went on her trampoline!! well dats about it well actually no it woznt!! i got invited 2 go caping wid loads peeps mum sed yes but dad sed no 4god sake and i neva even lied! owell they sed i can go nxt time! Well had 2 walk 2 alyses and she tld her mum she woz sleepin at mine that woz ok and easy but then walked to erins and ive neva been so scared about speakin wid sum1s parents mainly bcoz it woz down 2 me 2 lie 2 get her 2 b able 2 go camping! so the plan woz i giv her mum mikes mob num say my house fone is unplugged coz we r decorating which is 100% tru anyway!! then i had 2 giv her mum my address so i did bcoz she wudnt cum2 my house anyway just a threat or if she didnt go home! the problem is im not a gd lier bcoz i dnt lie alot well 2 my parents anyway i tell them the truth where i go and everythin so that woz actualyl really scary 4 me but i did it yay although i woz shaking and really really scared !!!  owell so Erin pertended 2 b at mine 2 they hav gon campin as much as i wanted 2 go i dnt mind bcoz there 2 best m8s and hope they have fun im covering 4 them 2nite!! Well keep gettin txts from a guy called Chris who i also met at the party althoug cant really remember him just remember thinkin he woz quite kl and talked alot!!  He phoned me a couple of times 2!!  Well meetin him in poole 2st me and him then goin 2 bmouth c who gos then mayb get 2 no hiom a bit more!! owell thats all 2moz !! blog 2moz if i can!!

Apr 8, 2005 at 16:23 o\clock

Beach Party 2nite 7pm Sandbanks

by: devilish_princess

Listening to: My Chemical Romance - I'm not ok

2day theres a beach party at Sandbanks which should b good loads of booze and loads of peeps!! Well the weather duznt look 2 gd owell if it rains we get wet!!!  Well ive been told im not aloud 2 cum home drunk which is kinda hard 4 me so basically that meens not even 1 reef or baccardi breezer or beer!!!!   owell hard luk stuff parents!! although chloe is cumin 2 mine after so chloe will have 2 b gd 2 lol well thats gunna b hard 4 her !!!!  o well Sharron and me r m8s but kinda off and on maybe bcoz ive seen her every day this holiday maybe just need a break owell well im not gunna rgue wid her cant b botherd so if she decides to rgue then she duz!  well me and Danny only ended up going out 1 week every1 took the piss outa him calling him Rat face which really pissed me off cudnt be doin wid it especially wen we hav skool bloody skool nxt week! I dunno y im just really emotional and pissed off 4 no reason really well just life but atleast i hav my m8s i can trust and speak to luv u Alyse Sharron Loz and Chloe and sumtimes Dan!!!  Loads more peeps i cud go on 4 ages! u know who u r!  Mainly spent this holiday wid Alyse Sharron and Dan but also r sunday group sum days 2!!!  Blog soon xxxxx

Apr 3, 2005 at 18:37 o\clock

TOWNIES!!!!

by: devilish_princess

OMG 2day woz so funny!!!  Y do townies think there so hard lol Josh put his middle finger up at them they came up and go have u got a problem or sumit like that i just laughed and they sed they were gunna throw me in the lake lol o and called me and loz mouthy cows lol!!