Mood: happy
I feel slightly sick right now. I'm not sure why. I didn't eat too much and turned away dessert, a chocolate cake that my brother had picked up at the bakery. Maybe it's the feeling of knowing we're having another snowstorm that is making me feel like this. Hmmm...whatever it is, it will pass. I finished reading my book this morning at 5 a.m. I woke up too early and didn't feel like getting up so I read the rest of it. It ended sadly, I wished the title character had found more happiness in his life but that's the way it was meant to be be. I recommend the story highly and I am going to read her first novel too because it received even higher awards. Now I will be taking a few days break from reading because of Easter and the need to do a little extra cleaning. I tend to fall into that spring cleaning routine anyway. I have developed extra energy because the Depakote has been leaving my system and it is very strange what is happening to me. I can remember my dreams again and have very strong emotions again. In a nutshell, I am alive again. It's really incredible and you can't even imagine it unless you've been through something like this. I've missed being in touch with myself for years. Before I could tune out my inner voice and not listen to my true emotions and they would be left drowning below the surface as my Depakote world would glide silently over them. Now, I stand here and say to myself, "HEY FATTY!....LOOK WHAT YOU"VE DONE TO YOURSELF. I GUESS YOU'VE GOT A LOT OF WORK TO DO TO GET ALL OF THAT WEIGHT OFF, HAVEN'T YOU?" It's getting really hard to ignore that voice now, especially when I know it's true. Well, I've got to get a drink of water as I've been working at this computer too long and my legs need a stretch. Bye
