Mood: what difference does it make
This is day two for the ritalin and so far so good. I am afraid to become optimistic though. Too many times I have been burned by optimism, only to have my feelings stomped on and my emotions smashed to the floor. I am going to follow the advice of AA and take it one day at a time. I saw my own therapist today too. Got into a good rant about things and how my medication sucks and depression is a daily occurence, blah blah blah. So, we came to the conclusion that my medication at this current dosage is not going to work and at a higher dosage I will just eat myself into a coma, so we are going to try a new medication (for me anyway) Guess what...I already have the medication in my house because it's the Topamax that my daughter couldn't take. So tomorrow morning I'm going to try the Topamax. So, if it kills me, thanks for reading my little blog of insanity. And if it doesn't kill me maybe it will cause me to lose my appetite and then I can drop a million pounds and win the lottery and go on a round the world cruise with (hmmm, let's see....)Donald Trump, eh maybe, it would be interesting to pick his brain but there are other people I'd rather be stuck with but I can't think of their names at the moment because my daughter is trying to pick a fight with me so I will leave the room and she can then hijack the computer. Another typical night in my household.
Mucho Grande Hugs!
-Michele