I Don't Recall Breaking Two Mirrors

Finally the first day of Spring! This has seemed like a very long winter season. We had a very nice day here in New England, sunny and temps in the 40s. My daughter came back home today acting all sweet too. She wanted to show me the presents she had bought for the little girl down the street who was having a birthday party. She can be such a nice little girl when she wants. Sort of like Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde. It didn't take 30 minutes for her to change when I reminded her she needed to have something to eat before heading out for the afternoon to a friend's house. She finally agreed upon a slice of bread      ( I still think she was switched at birth)   . I tried my best to ignore her behavior and just focus on the fact that she ate something, anything. My dad has been coaching me on trying to ignore her since he has noticed she is really challenging me and it is really a power struggle. So, since I can't control her I have to learn to control myself. You'd think I'd have learned how to do that by now seeing as I am 40. Maybe I shouldn't have spent those first 36 years screwing around. Go figure.

Mood: ok
Listening to: ozzy-Hellraiser

Aaahhh.....a day filled with nothingness. Is there such a word? Well, there is now. Talked online to a friend overseas for three hours this morning, played video games, ate lunch, washed dishes, more computer, more video games, more laziness, ate dinner, more videos and more computer, a little cleaning of my daughter's bedroom and that is all I have done ALL DAY LONG! and I don't care.........I did call my husband's to see how my daughter was and of course she is fine now, thank God, but I just wish the weekend would last a little bit longer. Tomorrow I will do the housework I didn't do today. I also need to decide eventually whether I am going to continue to homeschool her or not. I checked some of the tuitions of private schools here and they are all in the $23,000-$25,000 a year range. That's a giant OUCH! Don't know about you but my husband works in a factory and I went to a public school. I've homeschooled her for three years succesfully and can continue to do so if she doesn't drive me insane first or I can send her to the evil public schools and subject her to the roll of the dice....hmmmm...I don't know what to do. You know, either way, she'll hate my decision and everything will be my fault, so I guess it doesn't matter, I should do what is for her best interest since she is not thinking clearly enough for her own good. I'm glad I wrote this.