I Don't Recall Breaking Two Mirrors

Mood: slightly depressed

I am feeling a little depressed now. I have gotten back from taking my youngest for her weight check and she has lost two pounds again. The doctor kept stressing the nutrionist but I told her they have a two month wait and what difference did it make anyways. My daughter is very smart when it comes to eating , it's just that she chooses not to do it some times because she hates herself. A nutrionist can't fix that problem. She is already seeing a therapist and now the Lithium. I told the doctor that hopefully the Lithium will stop this kind of behavior but it was a small battle of wills. People just don't understand what it's like when a kid acts all sweet in public and behind closed doors wants to rip your head off.

And then there's the problem with my husband.  

He would be the one on the left. Although Homer is stupid in a sweet and childish way. My husband reminds me of a slug eating a leaf in the garden. He's just doing his thing. I really can't figure out why I am this angry with him either. I've been married to him for over 17 years and we've known each other for 19. I think it just bothers me that I can't rely on him when the going gets tough.  He offers no support whatsoever, be it physical or mental. He is just there and like another child someone that needs but doesn't give in return. I don't know.....I guess I just don't say anything and wait for the winds of spring to blow again. That always makes me feel better.

Today I took the kids to have their blood drawn and that went okay. But later on my youngest called after having taken her first dosage of Lithium telling me how awful it is and how she doesn't want to take it. I told her there are side effects that go away but she was acting her usual weird self. I am worried though because she is spending a few days at her father's house and he is missing a few brain cells when in comes to common sense. I know, I know....I am trying SO hard not to be negative towards him but it is tiring having a man call me constantly to tell me something has broken. Why is he telling ME? I thought men were supposed to fix all of the world's problems. Oh wait, that's right...they cause them. Silly me for thinking otherwise. Sorry PMSing here! *lol*  But I let my daughter take the Playstation 2 to her father's yesterday and today he tells me it's not working. AAAGHHH!!!!! I am not surprised.