I Don't Recall Breaking Two Mirrors

Mood: ok
Listening to: the weather channel

We are all waiting for our first blizzard in years. Of course we have snowstorms every year but if the winds blow harder than 35 mph and there is an accumulation of a certain amount of snow per hour...blah blah...then it is a blizzard. So, we are expecting 15-18 inches of snow and 50 mph winds. Gee, I can't wait to shovel in that. Actually, I can envision building a snowfort like I did when I was young. I can remember sitting in my snow house at night with a candle, reading a book. But I was a weird kid, I liked solitude. I used to think about camping in Alaska when I grew up. It's funny how the cold feels so much colder now that I'm older. Still, I might build a snow fort. My neighbors are used to me and the odd things I do in my back yard. Oh, now they have upped the inches to 15-25.  Hmmm....I hope I'll be able to drive by Tuesday since I have a doctor's appointment. Maybe I'll cancel on Monday because I hate driving in the snow. I guess I really need to loosen up, it's not that big a deal. 

Mood: aggravated

Ever have one of those days when everyone pisses you off? Today was my day.  Actually, every day is my day but since I have cut back on my 'make me a zombie' medication I am just starting to realize what a messed up bunch of people I live with. 

Starts out with younger daughter and her usual scream fest because she got two wrong on her history test. She is such a perfectionist! I try to explain to her how the answer is and tricks to remember them but she wants none of that, she just wants to scream and call me a bitch. Then when doing my exercises she tells me I am doing them wrong and that I am fat and that my sister would never act like this. Who cares what my sister acts like while exercising!!!! So I talk to the woman on the video while she is torturing me......BIG DEAL!     

   Then I had to take my father out to buy a new ironing board and see if we could find a new light fixture for the kitchen. He thinks because a tiny piece of plastic broke of off the flourescent light thing that the whole thing is broken and we need a new one. This thing has been in the kitchen since the 70s and all of the other ones use a smaller tube flourescent light. He doesn't like them, he wants the ones with the big T12 bulbs not the T8 bulbs. So, after we had already spent an hour finding this light fixture, he changes his mind and we leave with nothing.

Then to top it all off when I let my three dogs out in the yard to do their business. One of the dogs starts eating the crap as it's dropping to the ground from the other dog. I had to beat him off with the scooper. I am running after the other dog because he has already finished and the other dog is headed to eat his crap too. My God, what was that all about. You would think the dog was starving and hadn't eaten in a million years and those were fudge brownies being dangled in front of his nose. I must look like a moron running around with a pooper scooper chasing after these dogs so the other one won't get to it first.

I HAVE HAD IT TODAY!!!!!  I've  headed upstairs and locked myself in my room and don't think I'm coming out till tomorrow!.

Mood: ok
Listening to: the urbz

Today it's snowing and has gotten colder. We went to the doctor today for the weight check and she has gained three pounds. The doctor was very happy and we don't have to return for another month. Also the psychopharm people called and made an appt. for two weeks from now. Yuck..I get tired thinking about that but it really needs to get done.

My husband called today with news that my neighbor has cancer and only has 3-5 yrs. left to live. I will have to go see her and I have been thinking about what to say. It's not as if she will get better and she has to go through chemo. I guess I'll just pray for her to have an easy adjustment and hopefully she doesn't get too sick. I hate stuff like this because I feel very inadequate at comforting people. I tend to be the type that laughs alot to ease the tension but I'm not about to make jokes about this. I feel terrible for her.

Mood: sick
Listening to: Black Sabbath

I went away to a special tropical location. There was the most delightful, swaying palm trees and the clearest blue lagoons. I was catered to and waited on. It was wonderful.....aaaaahhhhh. The pink sands beneath my toes and the waves lapping at my feet and then the jarring sound of an alarm clock as I am awakened from my slumber. All a dream, a wonderful dream......  Back to reality though....

Tomorrow my youngest goes back for her weight check. I think she has put on some and the doctor should be pleased. We are still waiting for the therapist to call to arrange a visit with a psychopharmacologist (oh, that's a big word) and then she'll probably be put on some medications. I hope she becomes a happy child again and not this bitter thing she has become. I don't appreciate being called a 'fat ass'.