I Don't Recall Breaking Two Mirrors

Mood: AWAKE
Listening to: XMAS CAROLS

STUPID DIET! DRINKING TEN CUPS OF COFFEE IS NOT TOO MUCH FOR SOMEONE AS CENTERED AS I AM.

Mood: happy
Listening to: daughter's meowing

My daughter is at her therapist now, so the room is quiet except for my older daughter making meowing sounds. I think she has been watching Spongebob too much or else her medication's not working. I raked some leaves today while the weather wasn't too cold. Tomorrow it's supposed to rain all day long. What else is new? At least it's not snowing. I hate having to do all of the shoveling, especially when the snow weighs so much.

Maybe tomorrow I will dig out some of the holiday decorations and throw them around the house in a festive manner. If I wait too long I might not want to do anything and then there'll be no tree nor nothing. I can get really depressed at this time of the year and when I do then nothing get's done in an orderly fashion. So, last night I decided to take fewer pills than I was supposed to. I'm supposed to take 1000mg which is 8 pills but I decided to take only 6 pills. I am going to experiment and try to reduce my medication to the old dosage of four pills. I used to take that when my life was manageable, before my daughters were crazy and before my mother got Alzheimers and then died. This medication sucks too, it makes me gain weight. You would think I'd be able to eat ice cream everyday of the year and keep my marvelous figure but it doesn't seem to work that way. Aaagh.

Mood: okay
Listening to: the simpsons

I must have been out of my mind when I decided to homeschool my kids. At the time, it was the best thing to do but years later my hair is gray and my face is worn. Don't get me wrong, I love teaching them but they both have bipolar disorder and life gets weird at time. I am constantly getting screamed at and occasionally pushed but mostly it's okay.

My kids are so lucky that they don't have to get up early and go out into the cold weather too. When I was a kid, I had to get out the door by 6:15 a.m. and the weather was freezing. We can get up at 7:00 and don't have to worry about being late at all.

God, every time I hear Homer Simpson singing it reminds me of my husband. He is so much like Homer with the exception of him trying to do things for Marge.