I muz be the densest person to walk on the suface of Earth...
Mood: tiredz
Listening to: tong hua
and the reason for that? 20-05-2005. That was the day that more than 150 couples in Singapore tied the knot. And what was I doing on that day? Going out on a 'sort of' date with him. God...*burys heads in hands* And I only found out today, after going all those newspapers I should have read earlier. :(
I'm not particularly sure if he knows about it, but you can be sure that I won't be the one to tell him. The fact that he said he wanted to give us a chance on friday, told me he didn't mind my parents' disapproval as long as I wanted to continue on Saturday, and on Sunday, happily told me that he still couldn't forget her. What's a girl to do in the face of this?
This was precisely the reason why I didn't want to let him know in the first place. Because I knew what would happen if things didn't work out. :( I would be -and am- constantly thinking of him. That's not the worst part. The worst is when we meet and I can see the pity in his eyes when he looks at him. That is what I totally hate. I have enough self-pity to drown myself with, thank you very much. No need to sweep me away with more from others. Seriously.
I know I should probably let him go, which was what I had been trying to do for the past week. It probably wouldn't happen quite so fast, but I definitely have to learn to bury my feelings so that it doesn't surface quite so easily in front of him. Otherwise, our friendship might be affected. That is the last thing I want.
God...I hate myself for being dense.
