crazed and writing

...and I'm barely scrambling to keep up. :( I wanted to sign up for the Australian Math Competition, but couldn't find the math noticeboard. Also wanted to go for the meeting for the Annual, which is supposedly the school magazine, but I was too involved in celebrating Shu Lian's birthday and missed the time. :(

On the plus side, I 'volunteered' for the chess club ex-co committee. Strangely enough, there're only six people interested, and there're only six positions. Does that mean that we all get a post? I wonder.....But anyways, we're supposed to come up with a design for the chess club t-shirt, get a company to make it at a reasonable price, and finish it all by next Wed.  Then they'll decide whether it's okay. I think they're just trying to make life easier for themselves so that they don't have to worry about it. *sigh*

There's something I wanted to talk about for days, but kept either forgetting to logon, or the site was down, or I was too busy. I wanted to make a note here, no matter if other people see it.

I DO NOT LIKE PEOPLE WHO DO NOT WANT TO HELP THEMSELVES.

Maybe that was a bit harsh. How about

I DO NOT WANT TO HELP PEOPLE WHO DO NOT WANT TO HELP THEMSELVES, SO STOP TRYING TO ACT PITIFUL AND GAINING MY ATTENTION.

That's sounds a bit mean. *sigh* But it's the truth. I don't mind if you're not good at studies. As long as you try, I'm willing to help you to the best of my abilities and time. But if you keep having that I-don't-particularly-care-about-homework-and-I-think-it's-a-waste-of-time, then I'd say, get out of my face. Stop wasting my time acting all pitiful, while you concentrate on your 'more important' stuff. There are people out there who care about their homework, and want to do well so that they can go to university, and it just so happens that I'm one of them, therefore you should just say sayonara to jc coz I'll bet you won't survive the first year. *stalks off*

No, actually I'm not really angry. I'm just irritated. And I keep trying to avoid that guy, but somehow fate would have it (or maybe he was the one doing it) I would keep seeing him in the morning, and then I'll be walking very very very slowly so as to keep as large a distance between the two of us. Urrgggh! I want this to stop! You! Get out of my life! And stay out!

I so need a break. Right now. This instant.

Mood: sleepy
Listening to: silence

2.01 in the morning. :D I have a long day today, but that's not the point. The point is that I slept yesterday at maybe 7 pm. 0.o And I still feel tired. But the stack of homework must be done, one way or another, so I've dragged myself out of my comfy bed to do them. *sigh*

Moving on... The PI has been submitted, and I'm glad it's only a draft, because my PI sux! Not to mention the fact I did it a total of three times because I wasn't satisfied. I just hope it wouldn't be too bad...

Deadline coming up: The anthology story. I'm still where I'd stop the last time. :( I really need inspiration right about now, coz unless I do, I won't be able to complete it by the end of this week. *sigh* Plus the common tests are next week. And I'm working on labour day. *double sigh* And I just feel like sleeping...

Mood: tired
Listening to: tong hua

...from Taiwan. She seemed very happy, for which I'm glad, coz in all the trips we've been out of Singapore, she always had something to worry about. I guess for this trip she could focus on enjoying herself and not worrying about us. :)

She bought a 1000-piece puzzle for me instead of the promised 2000 one, but I'm not upset. The painting isn't something I would have chosen, but it's okay. It's the idea that counts.

Come to think of it, I'm seriously in need of money. The drain for schoolwork has ended (I hope), but there are still a couple of things I want to buy, but can't, coz I'd be using my salary from part-time work. Which I want to save up. *sigh*

The PI for the PW thingie is due on Mon. And I haven't done much research yet. Guess I should go back to that.

Ja.

Mood: blank
Listening to: Need you ask? Tong Hua by Guang Liang, of course.

...coz I've run out of things to say. Life is moving on, jc life is getting tougher and tougher, I think I'm getting sick, I still want to play the piano well, I've got lots of deadlines for story-writing coming up, the JCAC went bust before it got started, I want to do CIP but I don't know how to go about doing so, my life is a mess. Very obvious, huh? ;)

Well, let's start from the top. JC life is getting harder, but I'm determined to cope with it. Homework is fun, and I'm glad I chose the subjects that I liked, if not, I'd be suffering right now.

Playing the piano...I'm learning a new piece, the opening song 'Tori no Uta' of the anime Air. Kar Wai says she might be able to get her hands on the scores for 'Tong Hua' by Guang Liang, my newest obsession in Chinese pop music.

Lots of deadlines...actually, most of them are self-imposed. The end of April one for anthology, however isn't. I'm fully prepared for it. Actually, mostly. I've got 4900+ words typed, about 1000+ more to go, but inspiration has just about dried up. It's up to my plain old soul to try and figure the end out. The other deadlines are just the monthly flash and poetry challenge. And of course my end of year novel deadline.

The JCAC... I think I mentioned that already, so I won't harp on it. You should get the picture, but I'm still nursing the hurt.

CIP...I dunno. How am I going to spare the time to do that on weekends? That would be eating into my lie-down-like-a-log-and-blank-out time. :D Well, it's for a good cause. *shrug* I'll get round to it.

Life's unpredictable. That's what I've learnt. It's especially hard for me to cope with that, since I like predictability and orderliness, but one has to live with it. Just like the tsunami and earthquake and volcanic eruption victims have to live with life. So stop complaining and get down to work.

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: tong hua - guang liang

Okay, so who's brillant idea was it that taking vit. B pills would help in relieving stress? Because it so doesn't work. Worse, I have a tummyache that hurts like 7 hells, which then gives me more stress. Aarrrghhh!

School was okay. No major problems. Though I had no break because of 1. celebrating emily's birthday, 2. the othello competition. Not that I'm unhappy. I wasn't even hungry, so it didn't matter. Hmm....eto...I went for the competition. Got 4th. So not happy. But my bro was like, wow, you can actually get 4th? out of the whole school? Not bad, huh! But to me, I wanted to get top 3. Getting 4th was like, damn. Miss by an inch is the same as missing by a mile. *sigh*

Anyway, I just noticed something. Wenhui and Joela makes a real good pair. Especially since they're in the same class. And in the same cca. And both are good at chess (Wenhui got 1st; Joela got 2nd). It's like, wow, super compatible kinda thing. :D Not that I'm going to tell them that. I noticed that if you tell two someones that they seem like they're going out together when they haven't done so, they'll avoid each other like the plague. But if you let things happen naturally....hehehe....:D

Or maybe they're going out together already. I dunno. Anyways, I'm not going to say anything or do anything to come between them. It'll be fun to watch them get together, and I'll be at the sidelines laughing, saying, 'I knew it all along, and it took you guys (insert time) this long to get together! *Laugh*" Definitely looking forward to it.

Mum's going to Taiwan in like 2 days' time. My responsibilities just got a tinny bit more. *sigh* The anthology story is due end of April, and I'm still 6000 words away. *double sigh* You can view my other blog 'my writing journey' to view the draft. A little gentle warning, though. The draft will not be error-free. So don't be too picky when reading it. Comments are always appreciated, though. *hint*hint* :D

Mood: tiredz
Listening to: tong hua - guang liang

...and I'm out of bed and at the com. Well, mostly. My eyes are still very tired, though. Just posted the first bit from the anthology entry - entitled 'Visiting Winter' for now - in my other blog, 'my writing journey'. Go check it out if you're interested.

There's going to be the othello competition today, and I'm so not in shape for it. I want to continue typing my draft, but I guess I should go read up on strategies instead. Let's not lose too horribly in the games. If I'm actually in it. *shrugz*

Mood: sadz, tiredz
Listening to: silence

...even though inspiration hit me in the head with a brick and I wrote five pages worth of draft. Okay, so maybe it's only four and a half, but it's still alot. And it was all done during lectures and tutorials. Good use of time, huh? :P

Hmm...the JCAC would not be formed now. Mrs. Koh has rejected the idea because of lack of sustainability. Okay, so that did not appear in my computations for likelihood for the setting up of the cca. She sounded so serious and helpful at first, when we did this whole lump of proposal which didn't make much sense. I thought it was more of the problem of focus. But now that we have a focus, she says it's too expensive. Then, after we said that we would be willing to scrape the language course, hence making it very cheap for the school, she said that it was the problem of sustainability. Since I don't curse very well, I shan't. But this entire situation sucks! There goes my plans for JCAC. And I'm left with only chess. And there probably goes my scholarship too.... no excellent cca record=no scholarship possiblity. Arrrgh!

The good thing would be inspiration finally granting my wish by hitting me over the head with unending ideas. My fingers are tired from writing, my wrists and elbows (the left one, actually) hurts for typing in an unnatural position. I don't know the reason, but it hurts. And it's all Mrs. Koh's fault. She'll shoulder all the blame cause she's responsible for dashing my dreams. All her fault. Everything, you hear! EVerything!

Mood: 0.o I'm half awake; how do u think I feel?
Listening to: fan whirling like crazy

0.o Can't really think of what to say right now. It's 4.07 in the morning, and I woke up to do work, so I really shouldn't be here.

Still have the Econs TYS MCQ qns to finish, and math tutorials, and econs notes to sort out and lit notes to copy into a book when I get it, if I ever do. Oh, and I have to remember to bring an A4 book for Econs. Not that I like the Econs tutor enough to want to please her, but I made the decision to be serious about college education, and it's enjoying hitting me over the head with it. *sigh*

The JCAC thingie seems to be getting no where. Even though Ms Teng says that the only problem is with the money thing for the language course, I have this feeling that it's more than that. Which means that I have to try and persuade Mrs. Koh myself. Which then means that I have to rush out the weekly meetings schedule. Which is impossible because I'm swamped with homework. Not that Lionel and Emily isn't, but I just want to complain about it. Starting a new cca really takes time, and lots of persuasive power. Which I don't have. Read -[DON'T]-

I never seem to get enough sleep nowadays, even during weekends. And my mum is flying off to Taiwan this coming weekend. Which means that I'll have more stuff to do, like wash clothes and prepare food. Damn. There goes my sleep again.

Ramble End. Ja.

Mood: cheerful, tired
Listening to: Prince of Tennis - Free as a Bird

...at my recent attempts at anime and manga drawing. Or more like manga copying. :P I can't put them up at the moment, since I don't have a scanner, but maybe when I snitch the digicam from my bro? I wonder if it'll be as nice...

Anyway, JC life is just beginning to stress me out a little. The amount of homework seems to be piling way too much than I can complete it. And it's only from math and econs; wonder what will happen when all the subjects kick into active mode? *sigh* I might be dropping that CLAO earlier than I thought.

Nothing much really, just very tired. Oh, and I finally borrowed the first 3 books of the manga 'tsubasa chronicles'. :D The main characters are Syaoran and Sakura from CCS! *cheers* The only thing I don't like is that the artist made all their arms and legs waaay too comfort for comfort. Or maybe he/she was trying to show that they're grown up? *shrug* It just doesn't seem right, that's all.

Ja.

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: Mahoraba :D

is a really nice anime to while away the time. :) Not that I have much time to while, but the graphics are really nice, the characters' faces are always in proportion, the plot, though sometimes inane, is really interesting at times, especially in ep 10. :D The main characters are so kawaiiiiiiii!!!! =D

Moving on, I'm going to try my hand (again) at drawing. :P I know I should keep my priorities and do econs first, but drawing is so much more fun! Much more than even writing, coz sometimes writing hurts my head. Even, or maybe especially, when inspiration throws itself at me like a brick. :P

Gotta go now. Blogging can't take up too much time. Ja!

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: inane chatter in the library

...I shall not ramble about how physical education - or more fondly known as P.E., is not fun. Today, I discovered the 'funness' of PE. Actually, it was more of not struggling through PE. I ran four rounds in 10.30min, found it a little tiring, and actually refreshing. :P I guess I must be getter fitter, though I gained an unexpected 1 kg though I was (trying) to go on a diet. :D

GP was fun. Or kinda fun. I like our tutor, Mr. Siah. He, in my opinion - or actually first impression - was a fun-loving kind of guy who knew when to be serious, when to be fun, a little shy, knows what he's doing...The list is endless. The bottom line is that I like him. Much more than I like Mr. Kong.

It's supposed to be project work lesson now, but since Mrs. Gan is on course, the rest of the class is using the time to watch a movie. :P I'm not much better, sitting here writing on my blog. But at least I'm doing something constructive, that is researching for PW.

Scribes and the forum people have been really nice about the 'Visiting Winter' anthology story of mine. :P My confidence has received a very nice boost. Now, if only I can find enough time to sit down and really write...

Gotta go back to researching.

Mood: tired
Listening to: maihime

... was at best, lame. We had an introduction between the othello members, played some games together, and that was it. :( I was so looking forward to playing othello again...only had a chance to play against Wenhui. I couldn't concentrate properly, so I ended up losing. *sigh* There's the othello intra-college competition next week. Wonder if I should join... but I'll probably get trashed into hell. Maybe I should just stay home or something...

Econs lecture was mind-boggling. Mr Haniz must have been speaking in Malay, coz I didn't understand a word he said. I guess I have to work harder at Econs than I thought I'd have to...

Got our timetable. The new school policy about letting students taking subjects from both streams is ridiculous. My latest timetable is 1710! Are they crazy? Why do I have to go home so late? And why do I such a huge break in between? Mo..!

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: ocean-gu dan bei ban qiu

The shoelace-as-drawstring idea was a wonderful one. I could forego tucking in my blouse and still look neat at the same time. :D And the teachers didn't notice anything! I guess it's pretty common, huh? Still, it's a wonderful idea. Thanks to Cassandra!

We had P.E again today, but it wasn't so bad, coz the teachers wanted to check the length of our skirts. I almost got picked out, but I guess the teacher thought it was still okay. :D Got off easy. :P

GP was a lot of copying work again. :P Maths was okay, but I'd read the notes and done the questions, so I had an easy time. Ms Teng is just not suited to be a lecturer. She doesn't make sense at all! *sigh* Even though she is the teacher of the not-yet-existent JCAC. Econs was kinda fun, coz Mr Haniz did the second half the lecture. He's a funny guy, and he kept the lecture moving at a steady pace.

Wrote the second draft for the April Flash Challenge. Go read it at my other blog. It's longer than the word-limit though. I'll have to bash it into size...

Looking forward to othello tomorrow. It'll be fun to play othello again. Maybe I should revise a bit on the strategies?

Mood: tired
Listening to: the cpu buzzing

It's subbed by YesY, so some of the translations sounded a bit off, but the ep itself was superb. :D I'm not trusting momotato's blog anymore, and you shouldn't too.

He said that it was a filler episode. I think it was the perfect ending. You could hear me sniffing all the way from the moon. It's like, most of everyone is dead, leaving only Reito, Mai, Mikoto, Nagi and Miyu(robot, doesn't count). Then, Miyu revives Alyssa, accidentally also revives Mashiro, who revives all the Himes, their loved ones and their Childs. It's like, Look! Everyone's back! Cool! that kind of thing. Then Tate comes to Mai's rescue, fights Reito will Mai saves Mikoto from the evil clutches of Reito (literally) by breaking the pinky-glowy thingie necklace. Then Mikoto 'kills' Reito, evil spirit leaves Reito, possess this really huge thingie that looks like Mashiro's sword, which apparently was hiding underneath Mashiro's crystal. Then, all the Himes destroy the Hime Star and Boom! The bad guys are dead, the good guys are all back, life is back to normal. No wait, Mikoto's dying! No! Mikoto! Don't die, Mikoto! Turns out she was just hungry. Mo...

I agree the rest was fansubbed, but what I liked most was when Mai and Tate Yuuichi was about to kiss (noooo! Why didn't they kiss? Stupid Shiho!) and the fact that Akira was wearing a skirt. Takumi must be over his head. :P

I had a fun time following the MaiHime anime, and I'm very glad I did. To those who haven't heard of it but love a sappy, something funny, lots of action, death which turns out to be not death, watch MaiHime. :D

Mood: cheerful
Listening to: mahoraba

...and it totally sucks. I mean, tennis in seigaku was to be removed and football introduced. That's fine and all, but they had to make Ryoma commit suicide because he couldn't take the loss of tennis! I mean, okay, if u make him really sad and depressed, that's fine. But you didn't have to make him commit suicide, right? Right? Waaaaaaaahhhhh! *sob*sob*sniff* And he was so kawaii...though at least they screw up his face. *sniff* DouSHIte?! Ryoma-sama...WAaaaahhhhh.....*double sob*

Moving on...*sniff* Made lots of little notes so that I won't forget what I want to say in my blog. :P Hmm...my handphone clock was six minutes faster than normal. Finally found the reason for my excessive running after time. :P Really, I have to relax a little, or I'll be stressed to illness before the promos.

Yesterday was kinda a fun day. Or should I say, night. Went for part-time work, found out that Mark Lee was coming. :P Not that he's a big star and all, but that coming so close to a local celebrity is kinda a novel thing, ne? :D He was the host for the wedding, like announcing the couple that kind of stuff. He was okay, I guess, not really being a snob or anything. Totally not what I expected. :P

The ct (meaning me, karwai, xinxian, cassandra, emily, lionel, qiyang, cheehow and extra zhiyang) went to j8 again for lunch, but this time we went to the food court. We bought the bday present - a pooh bear soft toy - for thulasi. I have no idea how we're going to wrap it, though. ^^;;

Sometimes, I get the feeling I'm bullying KarWai, and her allowing me to do so. I'm fairly sure that's not what a friendship is supposed to be. But when I try to not bully her, she keeps letting me...I dunno what to do. *sigh*

Saw wenhui again. Guess most of the students are wearing the uniform now. Everyone looks so brown. :P It was kinda awkward, but I think it's my personal problem. I seem to be awkward around all the guys, except for those I'd had time to get used to. :P Guess I just need more time, huh?

Hmm... the jcac proposal was kinda accepted by Mrs. Koh. kinda, becoz she said that she'll have to look through all the proposals, decide which to approve, how to spilt the money up, that kinda thing. Said she'll get back to us late this week or early next week. That's one thing less to do now. But Ms Teng suggested to prepare two timetables, one for the fortnightly language lessons, one for the weekly language lessons. I dun really mind, though I have an ulterior motive. :P I want to build up a presentable portfolio for university scholarship. :D

Was locked out of my house just now coz I forgot to bring my keys. :P Had to wait for my dad to come home. I spent the time typing what I wanted to say in my blog into my phone first. :P So what you're seeing is what I typed in my handphone. :P

Will be watching MaiHime ep 26 soon. Can't wait. :D

Mood: sleepy
Listening to: Air - Opening Song

According to a report that one of my friends read (I think it's Kar Wai), if you sleep 8 hours a day, your memory will improve tremendously. Hence, you should not burn midnight oil the day before your exam. Instead, you should have a good night's sleep. Right. As if anyone could get to sleep at all.

My memory has been awful of late. During the day, I'd have lots of things I wanna say in my blog, but I'll forget them the moment I'm at my com. That's why all my entries of late are so short. But I took to saving them in my handphone, so at least I'll have something to refer to. :p Here goes...

I sent the email to Ms Teng yesterday asking her for help regarding the proposal. She hasn't replied yet. I wonder if she even reads her mail regularly? Or has it been dumped into the Spam folder? Or worse yet, the Trash folder? *sigh*

Ms Victor said to meet again on Monday to print the portfolio, but she didn't reply to my question of before assembly or during the day... *sigh* It's weighing heavily on my mind, this CWS. I just wish it'll be over already...

I think I'm getting fat. The weighing scale came up to 54. =( I really need to go on a diet.

CuiWen, the girl in my class whom I was supposed to interact with on Friday, likes exactly the same things I do. :D Eg. Anime, Manga, fantasy, japanese culture. It's a very small world, that which we live in. :D

I'm working tonight again. I think I'll go print out the latest quotation, finish up the proposal, print that again, then take a nap. I'm falling asleep even as I type...*yawn*

Ja.

 

Mood: okay
Listening to: erementer gerad - promo music

...busy weekend. My days and nights for the next two days has been planned to the max. Visiting the temple, working at the restaurants, further working on the anthology story, my story, cca proposal, and portfolio, and practising maths. The only time I get to rest is when I get sick. *sigh*

Today was April Fools' Day. The good thing was that I didn't get picked on. The confusing thing is the triangle that seems to be developing between XX, Ed, and Cassie. I juz dunno what's going on anymore...

The membership for JCAC has swelled to 12. Now I only need three more to make us an official CCA. CuiWen suggested going to the NY forum to publicise the club, and lo behold, someone has already suggested the idea. I kinda suspect it's lionel, but I can't be sure.

Anyway, I finally got the uniforms changed. My mum's pretty pleased with them, as in how they fit on me or something, so she's finally getting off my back.

I always have so many things I want to write here, but the moment I get home, they keep evaporating into thin air. Aargghh! I hate my bad memory...