future-thoughts

Light is everything. It is responsible for all matter, all energy, space and time. It is the regulator. It is the very thing we are seeking and so will never find. We are made of light, and light is God, and therefore we are God.

Now consider that light, which is the essence of everything, and is the fastest thing in the universe is also electrical energy and when you consider a computer memory bank there is no up or down or left or right. JUST LIKE OUR UNIVERSE. Nothing is linear, nothing is connected and yet all is connected. Could you be living in a matrix and not know it? It would explain everthing we do not understand. A connection to another computer explains a black hole much more simply than massive gravity and time shifts.

We could all be living in the Sims and we would never know... Light, gravity, electricity, the beginning of time, time itself... it's all an illusion. Light, gravity and and electricity are all the same thing... but one thing cannot be more than one thing so therefore light, gravity and electricity are expressions of something, a something that we do not know and cannot know. Therefore we can never know what it is that causes the effects we experience... and you thought we lived in reality...

But don't be alarmed, be released and do what you need to do... if the role you are playing is breaking your heart, pick another costume and play another part... what have you got to lose, in reality lol

We’ve lived so long under the spell of hierarchy—from god-kings to feudal lords to party bosses—that only recently have we awakened to see not only that “regular” citizens have the capacity for self-governance, but that without their engagement our huge global crises cannot be addressed. The changes needed for human society simply to survive, let alone thrive, are so profound that the only way we will move toward them is if we ourselves, regular citizens, feel meaningful ownership of solutions through direct engagement. Our problems are too big, interrelated, and pervasive to yield to directives from on high.
—Frances Moore Lappé, Time for Progressives to Grow Up

Yeah it's a hard-knock life, and the above does illustrate the state of our consciousness. At least most of the population. Why don't most people help each other more - why don't people do more? Fear. That it's going to somehow hurt us. And the scary thing is that we know that's not true but, like a Pavlov Monkey in a cage, we still go with the program rather than reality.

Sad stuff. It may be hard to do what is right, but it also leaves us with more friends, more relationships that are meaningful and a reason to be here... make a change today and then tomorrow, and then the day after that until it hurts and you bleed... and then... make some more changes. It gets easier I promise. 

Mood: Abnormally pessimistic
Listening to: Heinken Cup Rugby

I've been standing at the front of the line with my banner raised high for some years now, defending the country where I chose to live, South Africa. I have done this with a certain sense of the enevitable I guess, but also with a large degree of hope and confidence that this time, yes this time, Africa will come to rights.

Alas I feel like the emperor's new clothes right now, looking at the circus that is pretending to be the electoral process for the leader of the ANC. One side stands a man with a grade 5 education, a machine-gun toting man who has unprotected sex with young women who he knows has Aids, takes a shower and thinks it's fine. He also has 4 wives plus one deceased, a young girlfriend and a corruption chargesheet as long as your arm hanging over his head. On top of this he has visions of communism being Africa's answer (of course some will be more equal than others).

On the other side a man who refutes that Aids is a threat, a man whose wife is Robert Mugabe's niece and a man who by all accounts is a raging alcoholic - I can live with that at least, half of our leaders have been drunkards... including the present leader of the free world. He also defends a woman who denies anti-retroviral treatment in favour of garlic and was also charged with theft and corruption in Mozambique 2 decades ago. A liar and a man who serves his god of money he has totally turned his back on what the ANC stood for.

On both sides freedom and liberation have become rhetoric, politcal speak for corruption, bribery, self-indugence and lack of duty backed by the knowledge that any criticism can be called racist. It seems Africa has performed it's great miracle of smashing a once prosperous country again... in this regard Africa has a 100% success rate.

Former president Mandela won't be at the conference, he is probably too ashamed. The truth is that the men who know run the party are not one hundredth of the calibre of the Madiba's, Sisulu's and the like, educated men who stood for change. These men are peasant stock, frontline fighters who have come to claim their pound of flesh and, in the process, have destroyed, at the cost of their people, the very notion of an African renaissance.

When Winnie Mandela suggests that Mbeki should remain until 2009 and then hand over to Zuma, as long as he doesn't prosecute Zuma is reported and not held up as a serious breach of ethics, a move that would have them all thrown put and arrested for corruption in a normal country, you have to know something is seriously wrong. Reporting has started to talk openly about bribes for votes, deals, counter deals etc as if this is the norm - well it is, in Africa.

And Africa shouts and condems the west for not helping them more - do what I ask. I see it with my own eyes a country being destroyed by bigots who hide behind racism and old cultural norms. Africa will never be a success as long as Africa continues to oppress their own people and blame everyone else.

 Cry, the beloved country. I need to leave and it makes me cry inside.