An Update
So I got a wonderful e-mail from an 11 year old girl in Reno that made me think I am not alone. IT makes it easire to know that there are other mothers, fathers, children and family members out there going through the same thing. I still feel alone because even though I have the support of people I don't know I don't have the support of my family. No one has called in awhile, my older sister has gone back into her unrealistic world of if I don't acknolwedge it it does not exist. When I try to talk to her or any other member of my family about my feelings or my situation I get no response. They all expect me to be okay because I don't cry. Well I don't cry in front of them but I cry... I cry ever day. It doesn't seem fair that I should have to go through this alone. Since I am doing this alone I want to move. I stayed here because mom was here and I did not want to leave her. I want to move to a different state, and try something new. I mean if I am going to have struggle to make ends meet, I might as well do it in a city I want to be in. I'm alone...that hurts. I'm going now... writing this depresses(sp) me.
