its funny when you think its gonna work out
Im crying my eyes out at the moment...
i really thought that it was going to be different with him..
he was the only person i thought about hugging and kissing that it would feel right with after the other person who i fucked it all up with
but it all turns out that hes got loads of girls that like him ....and he likes one of them back too.
so if anything i walked into this one with my eyes closed totally and stepped into the deep end.
i really liked him.
and i really wanted to talk to the other guy (the one who i really liked first)... well we have a bit of a history and he was a really good friend but well .. it all fucked up and .. got complicated.. so i lost that friendship....
So the thing is .. the only person who id talk to about all of this was him... and to be hoenst... he doesnt care about anythign i say anymore... well .. i doubt he does anyways..but just for one moment ... i want to go back and hug him like before.. becuase hes the only thing i know .. and he was the only person i felt safe with. Just one more hug and just cry my eyes out... i spose i just need a shoulder to cry on. But no one is there for me anymore...
and i spose tht is my fault aswell
ohh im so confused and hurt.. i just want to speak to him... but i cant and he went offline jsut as i was abotu to say something..
for once i want him to read this and just say. its ok, everything is alright...
but that will never happen.
i feel like giving up again
