shiny spoons

Mood: hypr
Listening to: the lil people

im in kinda a gud mood 4 once. ive nt bin goin thru sum crap times recently. like tryin 2 cum 2 terms wiv loadsa shit n goin in2 yr 10 ... dum dum duuuum. we buried my grandads ashes a couple of days ago... tht ws hrd...... evryday is becoming easier tho.... ive ad bout 6 cus of coffee so im reali hypr btw lol ...

Mood: depression
Listening to: the sound of my heart slowly stopping and going to a very small and slow beat n then .............................

this is my final goodbye for now. im going to live in a tip for a room and cry in2 my pillow then finaly emerge a couple of days later... ok on saturday cus im gonna go tlk 2 peter... but yeh emerge n thn jst burst in2 tears n b like tht until i go bk 2 skl n thn i will cry all day n all nite cus i will b seeing him evryday until he leaves ...wen yr 11s do. but i dnt see the point of carrying this on for now cus it jst has a load of gud times of me n peter n i jst cant face tht rite now................... I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mood: crappy as hell
Listening to: my depressing thorts

me and peter have broken up and its 2 am in the morning but i cnt stop thinking bout wt we had n dat n my room is flooded wiv a sea of tissues. im lookin at all the pics on my old phone of us n tht n jst burst in2 tears... (i sound reali gay but i cnt help it) the 1st we wud av bin going out for 4 months. I just can't sleep thinking about him. I cn only c me going bk 2 hw i used 2 b ... u dnt wana no... all i cn say is it ws bad ...... im goin in2 yr 10 in like 2/3wks n its gona b hell i cn telll u that ... i jst want 2 die........ All my close friends will no wt ive dun in the pst cus im nt afraid 2 tell them n ive evn tld my mum bout it ... wew nt recently cus its wrs thn lst time atm...... yeh ......

Mood: hhhmmmm hrd 2 tell .......
Listening to: ..........silence.......

(sri i cudnt fink of a tital) yay so peters bk frm hols which is pretty damn gud .... wt am i tlkin bout its gr8 ... lol i gess im kinda happy (ok so ee gt bk on sat but yeh) lol... ive ssen loadsa ppl recently.... liz danielle, sal, n anja, i spent an afternoon wiv liz n danielle, tlkin n dat , dt ws funky. n i went crokey trail n shoppin wiv sal (nt on the same day tho) n i hung out wiv anja .. which ws kl cus nt seen er 4 a while. but yeh i saw peter on sat ... n sasha actuali ... it ws pretty funky tee hee... simon (my bro) has been so anoying l8tly cus ees jst started 2 learn 2 drive so insists all the time to drive places its so anoying n also hes ettin bk in2 playing his deks n dats reali loud... ok me n simon r reali different actuali ,... jst noticed it den ... ok ... ok ... i new alredy cus im a girl n hes a boy lol ..... tee hee no relai r music n style .. its amazing reali jst 2 fink hw different we r lol ... ok ive blabbd on enuf now ....................

Mood: shite
Listening to: boyzone ... howeva sad .. i found my old cd and ws curious lol

i feel like shit 2 day 2 b onest. I really miss peter and i feel so empty without him and i dnt no wot im going to do without him ........ evr. Yes ppl say im obsessd but reali ... ok ok i burst in2 tears lst nite cus i wanted him so much. I jst need him rite now.... espesh afta a reali big fight wiv my dad were i stormed out and sat on dis massive square rok near da baby prk .. wer da scallys hang out... but non was der ... lukely cus i wudnt b here now... lol ......... omg i miss peter so fuking much ... ok now i sound v v v v pathetic ur probs rollin round on da floor lafin bout how pathetic n obsessd i am bi bi xxxxxx

here is an address to another blogigo..... guess who... suely it can't be too hard ...lol ... peter ..... it is ...... www.blogigo.com/come-as-you-are ... anywayz der u r ... lol

Mood: bored
Listening to: a random irish tune my dads playin

i have never been so bored sinse i came bk from ireland. I miss apsolutely ervy1 there and can't wait 2 c dem agen. and i can't wait 2 c peter again i miss him so much. lol

Mood: bored
Listening to: corrie

im in ireland for two weeks but we only have 4 days left of our holiday which does kinda suk a bit but yeh i cnt wait 2 c evry1 n den a wk l8tr c peter!!!!!!!! OMG I CNT WAIT. ive missed him so much and its sad but ive only bin away from him for 1 n 1/2 wks n im nearly dieing, missing him so much... but yeh lol i have bin really bored 2day cus last nite we hd a family reunion n cus evry1 went 2 bed in the early ours of the morning we had a loazy day and i get so bored very very quickly...... i even filmed a ladybug for like 10 mins....... GREAT FUTAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol Anyways all the adults av gone 4 a meal and left all da 'kids' in da hotel wiv 30 euros each for food ect........... but hey we get 2 do wot we want 4 2/3 hours lol ........... xxxxxxx

Mood: happily
Listening to: big brother in the background (my daddys watching it!!!!!)

today was sports day. I was pretty good. Our form came 1st out of the year!!!! I competed in the 100m and the relay. In the 100m i came 4th in the heats and i was in the fastest losers and suprisingly went in the final were i came 6th but at least i got in it i guess!!!! so i guess its not all bad. In the relay we came 1st for the 3RD YEAR RUNNING!!!!! YAY I spent practically all day with Peter. It was really fun!!!! : ) XXX I LOVE PETER XXX It rained a bit but we still had fun ...... tee hee

Mood: happy but tired
Listening to: da news

i went to Greenday it ws AMAZING!!!!!! Billy Joe Armstrong was so good .............. he is such a gr8 singer and evryfin!!!!!!!! The concert started at 5pm wiv hard fi plain 1st dey wer kinda crap tho so yeh ....... den it ws takin bk sunday 4 a while who wer amazin .... tho i dnt no any sngs so i lookd gay .... n den Jimmy Eat World played ....dey wer so good.... I NEW 3 SNGS .... i ws s happy cus im nt in2 dem dat much so yeh but suprisingly dey wer reali gud .... n then DA AMAZING .... GR8 .... LUVLI GREENDAY CAME ON STAGE... There ws fire, lights, smoke, evryfin reali!!!!!!!!!!.................... We waited 4 so long and it ws soooo worth da w8 (we waited 4 6HRS 2 get in2 da gate n den 3 ish hrs 4 it 2 start) ............................ wew yeh now ive lst me vioce so i sound gay but it ws well worth it!!!!!