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Aug 27, 2006 at 12:52 o\clock

whiskey o'clock OR pondering on diary writing

by: bluestone

Mood: relaxed in a tense kinda way
Listening to: jazz

When I was 14 I read 'the diary of Anne Frank'.

It moved me greatly and that is when I decided to record my days. It is a touch sad that I spent most of my time writing the typical teenage angst that many do. I only ever turned to my diary when I was upset or in the 'victiming' mode of thinking.

It was a reason why I began this online one. I was sad and looking for a place that could be 'all about me' (just like when I was a teenager)

I have realised that this is now a place where I record lots of things, not just the tragedies of my life. Thats good. I am pleased. I mean to say that I realise that this is still 'all about me'. But this is the only place that I can be 'all about me'. I can't give myself that luxury in the real world. So this virtual world is an indulgence.

But, I guess I like it like that. I am not sure what need it fills. But it does it any way. A pastiche of my soul (the unusual, the mundane and the ridiculous)

Why do you blog?

Comments for this entry:

  1. quotebluestone wrote at Aug 27, 2006 at 13:10 o\clock:yeah Diddums... I hope you will respond to this question!
  2. quoteDiddums wrote at Aug 28, 2006 at 00:40 o\clock:Hi Bluestone - like you, I started off with a private journal then tried blogging. I was running both of them together, with the idea that the private journal was for personal things, whereas the blog was for more general comments and observations. Recently the private journal has stopped - probably not forever, but I've not added to it for some months. Probably there is only limited time to write blog, read other blogs, and then write journal, and by the time you get there, you just want to turn off the light or pick up a book. Also I used to go into detail about how something was upsetting me, but now I want to turn away and forget about it.

    To some extent my blog is my soapbox - if there's something I'm concerned about, I can have my say about it and hope the right kind of people hear, which is everybody else... ideas circulate - it's a way of trying to influence the world. At the same time I don't like to force my ideas on anybody, which is probably why I've stayed away from political debate. A couple of times I've seen other bloggers claim 'a personal blog is a political blog', which is much my view.
  3. quotedavecathy wrote at Aug 29, 2006 at 23:06 o\clock:Trouble with me is that I think too much. I don't know if that is a strength or a weakness, but it causes me no end of problems. My mind constantly bubbles with questions; I am forever asking why, analysing the actions and motives of everyone and everything including myself. Of course, I never know the answers, so try to make those around me consider the same questions, to debate and argue issues, especially those things we take for granted, and the best way to do that is to say something contentious. Not everyone understands that.
    I cannot really explain it, but the older I get (and that is pretty old), the more driven I feel to understand, to gain some sort of enlightenment, in a Buddhist sort of way; not technological knowledge, but a sort of living working philosophy, where all creation and its actions fit neatly into an all encompassing natural order which I am comvinced exists.
    I suppose my god is Mother Nature (yes, a feminine deity), who is all powerful, but invariably lets nature take its course, whether that be hurricanes, wars, cancer, or even what causes a stick of chalk to break or a hen to cluck. I cannot change the world, but I would like to understand it. My blog is PART of my conversation with the world, and some very enlightened people respond.
  4. quoteapathetic wrote at Aug 30, 2006 at 10:47 o\clock:Not having blogged a lot lately, I'm questioning myself as to why I blog. It's a good question, but I think a lot of it is that it serves as some sort of catharsis - you just let it all out - whatever it happens to be at that moment. Now I've lost my train of thought. I do like the community feel of this site which is why I've stayed. My private diary is just for me and I'm sure it would be boring reading for anyone - it's necessarily brief because of the limitations of the page. If I by a 'day-to-a-page' diary I feel it's a waste when I write nothing for days on end, but then if I buy a half-page per day it's just not enough to ramble on. Online journals take away the fear of using up space - you can write as much or as little as you like.

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