my significant other
Oh my goodness!!!
It has been terrible. Frustrating. Almost debilitating! My laptop crashed big time and I was technologically naked for quite a few days.
I was surprised to find myself a little lost.
I did not realise how important this little piece of technology is to me.
When the tech guy saw me he said 'how important was that laptop to you" I replied that it was a big part of my life.
*Inside I felt my heart beating faster and a rising level of anxiety filling my chest.*
He laughed and gave it back and said it was now fine.
I was so concerned that I would not have this laptop to continue my various work related business... and of course all the internet interests of mine.
But all is well that ends well.
Things are not too bad in my life. I am very tired and when that happens, I don't tend to suffer fools to well. So I have not been 'making friends' at work. *sigh* Not that I care too much. I don't have a great need for people to love me. A healthy 'respect' is enough for me. I have to give feedback that people don't want to hear (fairly regularly), and then they tend to blame me or others for their failures. Pffff they usually get over it...... well if they want to survive in our system they do. (Then I admire them for just getting on with it)
If they want to play 'persecuter' that is fine by me..... It is probably a sad thing about me.. but I actually enjoy playing those 'games'.
I am an extraordinarily loyal and giving friend, but if someone wants to try and give me a hard time....they don't end up feeling satisified.
But there I go.... sounding all intolerant again. I need a holiday. I need one badly. I must find my balance - find my compassion...
