Reality Hits
Mood: sadly tense
Listening to: the tic toc of the clock
So I have been on holidays for two weeks. It has been great being able to sleep in till at least 8am. I love it.
However, I woke up this morning with my neck all cramped and sore. It has been killing me for the past 12 hours. I guess I am going to have to accept that it is the stress of going back to work.
But, hey, that is really strange, because I love work. My mind is bubbling with all the things I should have done to prepare for going back. So much work, so little time. My job means that you still have to work in the holidays. And I have not done as much as I had anticipated.
But I thought that I would spend some quality time with my son - as he seemed to need his mum around.... maybe he has picked up on his Dad and how sick he is. We have not told our son about my husbands condition - as we are being very hopeful that the chemo will work. (DR said it was a 60% success rate).
It is hard in the way that I don't feel like I have had any time for myself. So I still feel pretty tired. But I should not complain. Jeez, I am one of the few people in my family that is blessed with good health.
But my neck is still so bloody painful. I would kill for a massage! I know I won't sleep well tonight, as I never do before I go back to work... so I have taken half a valium. I never take drugs... but as my neck is spasiming so badly and considering my other stressful circumstances, I figured it was a good move on this occassion.
I have to present a seminar to the staff at work tomorrow... so I figured I NEED some rest.
Ode To Sleep
Come away, come away, with me sleep
And in soft bed let me be laid,
Fly away, fly away consciousness,
I am slain by cruel tension related muscle spasms.
(She says with silly postmodern intentions)
Okay, Okay - the first time I have put in a stupid poem. (I modelled it from a section of Twelfth Night - SHakespeare-
I am sure the Bard would not take this seriously.
Well, I must be off-
Ta Ta
