Another Aspect of Truth
Mood: frightened
Listening to: nothing but the strains of anticipation
Ok, I admit it. I have been nattering on about a whole lot of stuff and always avoiding the truths that are really distrubing to my (well my present anyway)
My husband began chemo today. We are just sitting back waiting for the effects. He has not had many so far. He has to inject himself once a week and take 5 tablets a day.
He has been so brave and very positive 99% of the time. Basically, the doctor said that if this does not work, he has about 4 years left before his liver cannot function.
I have never written about it because it is a truth that is quite painful to write about. I am keeping positive. It is my only choice.
I cannot cope with any other way of thinking.
I trust that things will go our way. In the meantime, I will work on my CV and try to get a job that pays more, and bring some more money into this place. It is getting a bit tough to pay the mortgage. But I feel we will get through.
My mum also seems a little improved.
I know that when one gets older, people that 'one' knows get sick etc, but heavens!! - I am 37. Things should not be this way.
I only hope that my husbands body copes reasonably well with these terrible poisons that he has to take. My dad could not cope with chemo at all - he was sooo terribly ill. It will be a matter of hours and we should have some indication of how he copes.
Wish us luck! ANy good thoughts travelling through the universe might just make the difference!
XX
