meaningless insights

Mood: melancholy
Listening to: silence

Energy levels dropped by about 1pm.  Sigh.

Mum's shopping was inspirational... I got some gorgeous scarves and cushion covers. She is able to walk a little better, so I am grateful for that. She found it hard without Dad. She said she had some pretty painful moments, being in places that they had spent so much time together.

Trouble is.. when she tells me, I fight back the tears so much myself, I cannot find anything to say to comfort her. It was a terribly cruel act for him to be taken away so suddenly. It grieves me to see Mum with such heartbreak and grief. There is no cure. I feel useless. She battles on, like all the women from her family (even going back generations) They make them tough in that family, but it still does not make this death/separation any easier. A terrible tragedy for two people who were not whole unless they were together.

And I hate injustice.......

Mood: energetic
Listening to: dishwasher cleaning

Isn'tit wonderful when you just get up and have heaps of energy? It does not happen often enough for me, but today is the day. I just feel great.

On reflection, I got a lot of my jobs on yesterdays list done. I even took my son rollerskating. Now that was a blast from the past. I have not done that since 1985! I remembered it all pretty quickly, it came flooding back. The rink looked like it had been around since the 80's - really old and dodgey! But we had a laugh.

Well, I am going to pick up my mum from the airport now. She is flying back from Thailand (in a bloody wheelchair - due to her terrible back problem) I still cannot believe that she went. She can barely stand to go to the toilet. But somehow, I reckon she has managed to complete her mission ........ mega shopping and mega eating all of that wonderful Thai food.

I must be off.... I might add another entry later!