Eyes Wide Open
Mood: wired
Listening to: the fish tank bubbling
3:30 am and I am wide awake.
I usually sleep really well, but here I am. Every now and then I have a night like this. It is like I never worry about stuff and then I have this one 'awake' night of anxiety. I usually worry about work. I stll have one week of holidays, so I do have time to get all my jobs done.
I always end up working throughout my holidays. I just cant help myself. It is work, but also a hobby. People think I am a touch crazy, but that is fine by me. The only thing that haunts me is when Dad was dying he said something about work to me...
He said something like.... work should only be a part of you life..not all of it.. life has to come first. He said it much more poetically than that but that was the essence of the message.
But I just can't help myself. So I think I will finish my powerpoint presentation and try for some more sleep.
That reminds me - I must remember to write about my sons new pets - two fish - I did not realise I would get so much pleasure out of watching them fan their tails around that tank. It is so gentle to watch. I just love them ... but I must write down the story of their names .. next entry...
