meaningless insights

Jun 10, 2006 at 10:40 o\clock

hmmm weekends

Mood: pleasantly at peace

Finally some time. I honestly don't know how I got through this week. I don't cope as well under times of stress. This is a time.

So I have hit the grog hard lately. Oh, I still manage to get up and go to work. I am always bright eyed and happy. People have no idea how much I can consume in a night. Functional alcoholic? I don't know. I guess I am. I battle with that one.

In my defence, I never get nasty or black out or anything. I never get so out of it that I do 'stupid' things in public or hurt people, either physically or emotionally. It just relaxes me. I appreciate that.

I am drinking a merlot at the moment which is on the edge of 'nasty'. It is a  bit young. But alas, that is what I opened. I am about to cook some nice john dory fillets on a kumera mash... not sure about what sauce to whip up yet. I am hoping to find some corn flour in the cupboard.

Every night I tell myself that I am going for a walk tomorrow.... but have not done so for such a long time. It is just tooo cold at present.

I must find some way of summoning the intrinsic enthusiasm for such adventures.

Well, I must adieu

Cheers