http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori the daily actions and interactions of yet another pseudo bohemian boy en apriori apriori Wed, 05 Apr 2006 18:41:00 +0200 daily 1 so it's not like im counting, but my easter became the seventh, person i have had full sex with. but theres really more to it than that. is it morally wrong to have sex with someone simply because they want to? we are getting up to stuff, and i point out that shes horny, in a play ful way, i ask " what cha thinkin?" she says "guess" so i do. "you wanna fuck, but you to timid, and scared i dont want to?" . "yea". i basically hinted that i did'nt. [i have really weird issues about the peaple i have sex with, its has to be something, and certainly with a person i like, also we are still in that early phase of a relationship and i'm in no rush]. as i let her know this, i just saw her whole body droop, i did'nt like seeing this, so i agreed [in not so clinical a term]. to say it was a chuckle bros affair would be a understatment. and i dont care for details [particularly considoring its not just my private matters on show here but...] - so things go yum, and things go in. - not so long in, i go "oh condom"... Wed, 05 Apr 2006 18:41:00 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/numnber-7./7/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/numnber-7./7/ its a very strange thing is the artistic nature, i've found there are to main ways that we see, the technical, when we look at the skill, the structure and the precision of art, peaple with a large technical skill tend to be graphic designers or typographers. and the artistic, ok maybe a better term would be good, but this side is the one that see beauty everywhere, the peaple that see beauty in a grid or a old would healing slowly. most considor them pretentious. i'm delighted i have both of these sides in bulk, but becuase i see thinks in such away, its quite hard for me to understand those that dont live in a world of facinating beauty and art. children are the worst, a child with no imagination is a sour thing, and the modern enviroment does'nt give our youth their inspirations and imagnation until their teens. its wrong when kids want to be grown up. why do they want to loose their magic? the magic the rest of use envy so much. i'm also very glad i've held my magic. all this... Fri, 31 Mar 2006 17:22:57 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/being-artistic/6/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/being-artistic/6/ so ok, i was a stupid boy, and as soon as i got a GF, i tossed away my new ideology of live like the river, and flow with the moment. i decided based on what i felt at the time that: A: i did not love her B: i did not click sexually with her C: i would never have sex with her all of these were true. but that does not make the truth. i told her this even before i said yes, and shes has delt. the issue is, now that i noticed my idiocy,apologised and took it back, my devious side has com into effect. my sexual nature is taking control, but i dont think she sees it. i control it when were lying down together, my lust is aggressive, and to go from nothing, to hardcore sexual activity in a blink of a eye may just mess her head up, so i leave it in her time, but she does nothing, assuming i want nothing, and i cant turn around and say, "girl lets just get up to summat eh?" becuase im no longer that sleazy. as the realationship stands, i aint that comfortable with her, i so love... Tue, 28 Mar 2006 16:48:27 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/issue-with-girlfriend/5/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/issue-with-girlfriend/5/ so ok, i was a stupid boy, and as soon as i got a GF, i tossed away my new ideology of live like the river, and flow with the moment. i decided based on what i felt at the time that: A: i did not love her B: i did not click sexually with her C: i would never have sex with her all of these were true. but that does not make the truth. i told her this even before i said yes, and shes has delt. the issue is, now that i noticed my idiocy,apologised and took it back, my devious side has com into effect. my sexual nature is taking control, but i dont think she sees it. i control it when were lying down together, my lust is aggressive, and to go from nothing, to hardcore sexual activity in a blink of a eye may just mess her head up, so i leave it in her time, but she does nothing, assuming i want nothing, and i cant turn around and say, "girl lets just get up to summat eh?" becuase im no longer that sleazy. as the realationship stands, i aint that comfortable with her, i so love living in a... Tue, 28 Mar 2006 16:47:50 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/issue-with-girlfriend/4/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/issue-with-girlfriend/4/ "excuse me, when does this station leave the train?" - Einstein i always thought of those peaple who a racist and overtly british, as those peaple who hate "pakis" and "nig nogs" as being scum. as having evil and dark qualities that i could not abide. i've found that these ideals tend to be a researve of the uneducated, the working class and poor of culture. [be aware that i am all three of these things] i am wrong. it is not evil intentions, these peaple who stand at the bar, and shout there racist filth, that vote BNP and have NF materials, they arn't evil. in a bond film they would be the henchmen. and i suppose the same could have been said about the SA or the SS. either way, we cannot feel sorrow for those that give and hold beliefs that are against our own [those of the good, just and right] you could argue that why are my beliefs better than theirs? the fact is, they are. this knowledge is a strange thing, and it only resently i've relised that the bad peaple, are peaple too, with... Mon, 27 Mar 2006 10:49:42 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/the-evil-the-followers/3/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/the-evil-the-followers/3/ im not the freindly guy peaple take me to be. i come across as cute a cuddly but i aint, im really just waiting for some nymthetamine or lecher bitch to come along, and just to live destructive, until then i go along normal, getting involved with the loves and hates of my college peers and at the same time being bored rotten of their simplity and certain friends falsity and imaturity. theres a girl called jane, who i call friend, who who treats me like a friend, and is generally a nice girl if not a little kooky. another friend called sarah, does'nt like her -understatment- and she constantly insults her -behide her back- but its ok, becuase my entire social group are besotted with sarah, she can do no wrong, so they insult jane and laugh when sarah does in some vain attempt to gain brownie points, but low behold they are all sweet as candy with jane when they are all alone. i hate that. quite frankly i prefer jane as a person, and she treats me much better thqan sarah did, i hold affection for... Tue, 21 Mar 2006 14:56:43 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/a-basterds-game/2/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/a-basterds-game/2/ this life is but a canvas for the imagination -Henry Thearou Reading: fairy tales grim i dont trust myself, every since i caim to the conclusion that to be overtly good is a bad thing for my spirit, i've felt the d-side growing. but until now i've had little opportunity to embace it, what with my college social group being full of peaple with year 9 minds and philosophy, whose lifestyle and culture are the same as the ones i used to mock. but now i have a girlfriend, who i neither love, click with or for that matter feel much sexual thrill with, i'm with her because i like saying i have a girlfriend. i told her all this, i told her all this, i told her their are certain girls who if opportunity came i would cheat on her with, without regret. i told her all these things and she nods, takes it in and ignores it. i'm flat out warning her i'm destined to hurt her, be it on purpose or accident, but its to late, her mind is clouded with deep feeling, i can do no wrong, my sweet and honest... Mon, 20 Mar 2006 15:41:57 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/perpetual-motion/1/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/apriori/perpetual-motion/1/