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I still haven't managed to follow step 3 yet.  The instructions are so fucking complicated.  You click on one link and have to download something then click on another link to follow more instructions and then another link to do something more, etc etc etc.  How the fuck are you supposed to follow all the fucking instructions online?  I printed out about 9 pages of fucking instructions which I have to follow AFTER I've downloaded some other fucking stupid application to make Nortons fucking install - JUST TO GET RID OF A FUCKING POPUP.

As you can tell, I'm still totally pissed off about it.  I don't have time to fuck around doing this that and the other - I need about 3 hours to fucking do it all.  Who has 3 hours to waste on fucking trying to install fucking Nortons fucking anti fucking virus shit???

Fuck them.

Mood: Irate

Did I mention that Nortons sucks ass?  To get rid of the popup I tried reinstalling.  Nope - didn't want to - missing file.  Wtf?  So I try to search for this elusive file on google.  One entry from someone else with the same problem and the only response they got was to deal with it.  Oh, how helpful.  So I wrote to Nortons.  Apologetic email with 3 steps I can try to get rid of the problem.  I've tried 2 steps already and still no luck.  For fucks sake.  So I'm currently trying to download Windows Install cleanup or something but I can't get there.  I downloaded it from somewhere else but it didn't work.  So I'm supposed to reinstall the fucking thing from microsoft itself but it ain't fucking going there.

What the hell sort of fucking crappy program is this???  You can't uninstall the fucking thing properly and it comes up with all these fucking missing files.  Surely reinstalling should include the fucking missing file!!!  FOR FUCKS SAKE!

Wasting my fucking time all to get rid of a fucking popup on booting.  Fuck you Symantec you assholes.  You're worse than fucking spyware.

I wrote an entry and it got lost in the ether.  I knew I should have written it elsewhere first or copied it.  Now I don't want to rewrite it.  You know how you write down your thoughts and if they get lost the moment is past and you can't put it all down again.

Maybe later.

People who hate them advise filling in bogus details so the marketing companies the information's sold to will get lots of bogus information about their so-called customers.  Well I do that anyway much of the time.  To me it's none of their business how much I earn, what I do, what my dog's name is, etc.  I make it up.

Great site to go to if you can't be bothered to sign up for a site:

www.bugmenot.com 

Mood: strangely morose

Put it on and watched about half an hour before realising I really didn't want to watch it at all.  Just not in the mood. 

Finally got the cable for the laptop so here I am trying to get used to it again.  I prefer the mouse to the touchpad because I find I get a sore middle finger.  Anyway, who cares.

I really should set a day aside to back up my valuable files on the other computer.  But when do I get a chance?  I'll be away again this weekend and won't even be able to keep up with the ordinary chores.  One day - it never comes, does it.

Read an interesting little article in the newspaper today which relates to the DVD I watched the other night.  On that DVD they said that corporations fit the description of a psychopath.  Today's little article actually said that psychopaths (who can actually function 'normally') would make the best businessmen because of their lack of fear, willingness to take risks, and, presumably, total lack of compassion.

There you go.  Our lives are run by psychopaths. 

Mood: pissed off

Well, I surprised myself by being quite ok during the day.  Forgot the annoyances and just did work and even had a laugh.  However,  I dropped by the computer shop after work to see if my cable had arrived.  They didn't even have a record of ordering the cable!!!  WTF???  The fuckwit said it would take two days.  That was 6 days ago.  I'm so peeved.  I had hoped to have my laptop up and running by tomorrow.  Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mood: tetchy

I must have got out of bed the wrong side this morning.  I'm in one of those moods where every little thing aggravates you.  Totally impatient and probably not even pretending a facade of niceness.  I hope I can achieve a smile before everyone arrives at work.  It must be all those litte annoyances that are building up - problems with the phone bill, problems with laptop parts, problems with a door that need aligning, not getting paid back some money owed to me.  These are, frankly, pissing me off.

I just hope I don't come across any impatient or attention-seeking people today or I'll probably snap.

that I don't update this blog too often.  But this could be a good thing, because I tend to leave this one for rants, and obviously I don't have anything to rant about lately.  That must be good.  Unless I'm too apathetic to be interested in anything to rant about right now.

Yup, nothing to write about because I start rambling about nothing.  This is not good, although it fills the page.  But i'll return hopefully with something....

*wanders off in search of inspiration..*

I watched a couple of very different DVDs past two nights.  But both of them had a common thread - the need to look after what we have.

The Corporation was a good documentary.  The first part I found a little tedious but then I got into it.  They're so right about corporations plundering the earth simply for greed.  There can be no democracy while big business controls us - and they do.  I was thinking towards the end that I must find out about the good and bad and boycott the bad.  Michael Moore said in one bit that he thinks people will watch and do something, while the corporations think we'll watch and do nothing.  There'll be both, depending on the individual's personal greed or morality.

The other movie was a somewhat weird Japanese one called Dreams by director Akira Kurosawa.  The final 'dream' was the one that struck a chord - the village of watermills.  The old man talking about how people have grown away from nature and see themselves apart from it and yet we depend on it while we destroy it. 

The earth shouldn't belong to anyone.  All living things are a part of it and should have access to it.  Clean air and water should be a right for all and yet we're polluting it all.

I'm too tired to write more.  There was an impressive thunderstorm tonight.  The mighty clap of thunder directly above us was a scary reminder of nature's power and a reminder that we're mere selfish mortals.  I can understand how ancient communities thought it was the anger of the gods.  It certainly seemed that way.

Sleepy.  Enough for now.

Mood: annoyed

Computers are great, when they work properly.  They're also a big pain when they don't.

I'm sick to death of having to run a thousand scans a day to try and get rid of some pesky trojan or spyware. (Ok, so I exaggerate!).  I go to this great site (techsupportforum) for help with getting rid of them but, hell, how time-consuming. On dialup it takes forever to download the programs they recommend in their step-by-step instructions.  The end result is usually brilliant but what a lot of time wasted to get there.

Nortons is fucking awful.  Why the hell did I ever install it?  I remember seeing it recommended as the best and forked out for it.  Now I see and hear nothing but negative comments about it.  Too late.  The damned thing seems to have erased part of itself so I keep getting a popup window on booting which won't go away unless I press Ok to let the computer continue starting up!  How can a program of any respectability not have an uninstall???  Not to mention the acres of space it uses up (so I like exaggerating).  It's a friggin nightmare.

During a power surge my cable to my laptop went pfft.  It just cost me 220 to replace it.  Serves me right for not having some sort of protector.  Well I got the damned thing home only to discover the new one doesn't fit the plug I had for the old one.  Great.  Just friggin great.  That laptop was a friggin waste of money in the first place - I got ripped off and have had nothing but trouble with it.

Oh, and when am I going to learn NOT to try and update this on Mozilla?!  It just won't work!

Rant over...

Mood: contemplative
Listening to: gunshots on tv

I dislike people who judge from appearance and think their snap judgement is the truth.  They make assumptions and jump to conclusions on no evidence but from their own prejudices on what they see.  It's what I hate about people and this world will never live in peace while people continue to judge.  And people will not stop judging because of experiences and the way they're brought up.

When was the last time you judged someone, from the way they were dressed, what they were doing at the time?  It's truly astounding what false assumptions can be made from a few seconds of observation.  It's so unfair, so unjust, and yet everyone does it.  Why don't we take some time to actually contemplate different interpretations?  Apparently we're all just too busy with our own trivia to even consider such a thing.

Can I just have a mini rant - Mozilla sucks ass.  It hates me writing anything.  So here I am back on IE - pfft.

Someone I know was dared to put her picture on hotornot.com.  She did and so far has a score of 8.6.  Wow.  Who cares, especially when the people voting have no taste.  That's how I see it anyway.  This is how it works.  If you're male, wear a uniform and pose manfully.  You'll get a score of between 9 and 10.  If you're female it helps to be blonde and have your cleavage showing.  Then it doesn't matter if you're a little podgy.  You'll still get a high score.  People are so predictable and fickle.  And I noticed some poor guy who looked kind of like an Arab had a score of around 4.  That sucks.  To all you racist pricks - I hope you die very soon - preferably painfully like being stoned to death.

Mood: analytical
Listening to: computer hum

A friend of mine, who's pretty intelligent (above average) and single, recently cancelled her membership of an online dating service, despairing that she'd ever meet anyone intelligent.  She says that in her daily life, she rarely meets anyone that she could relate to on an intellectual level.  (She lives in a small town.)  This got me thinking about people of above average intelligence in general and how they cope with the average or below average people they meet on a daily basis.  I know in my job serving customers that there are a hell of a lot of stupid people out there.  But then, when you think about it - they breed more, precisely because they can meet more people of the same type.  An intelligent person has less chance of meeting someone of the same or above IQ.  Does this lead to the ol' eccentric hermit?  Geniuses, for example, probably don't have the patience to deal with someone of below average intelligence and get really frustrated with people in general, so retreat into their own worlds or into their work.  It all becomes clear now. 

My friend made another interesting comment.  That people of lesser intelligence are just not bright enough to appreciate the wit and sarcasm that she loves so much.  Well, she didn't actually say that, but she bemoaned that she couldn't find anyone who had a sense of humour.  What the average joe might find funny - she would find crude and boring, for example.  And then you get that whole misconception of intelligent people being arrogant and up themselves, when really, they just can't relate on the same level.  It's not their fault at all.

As my friend lives in a small town statistically she has less chance of meeting someone of her intelligence.  Perhaps the intelligent are all in the big cities because that's where the jobs are for the type of work
they do.  Does this mean that small towns are full of the stupid or below average intelligence?  Looking around  where I live, I'd have to say yes.

I was encouraged to download the new version of Yahoo messenger.  I did, could see no real benefits in doing so.  Now, in the middle of a conversation with a good friend, the damned thing crashes and won't let me re-open it.  Fucked.  No doubt, it'd probably work if I restarted the computer, but fuck that.  Each subsequent version of Messenger seems to worse than the last.  So, I'm currently re-downloading the older version of messenger which, despite its faults, at least let me open up again.

I hadn't finished the conversation either and the guy I was talking to is feeling down and even talking of having suicidal thoughts.  Thanks Yahoo.  Just great, thanks.  I've been unable to open up again and get in touch and downloading is taking fucking ages (stupid dialup). 

OK, it's done.  Time to go.  Later!

Mood: Moody
Listening to: Alice in chains

when you spend several minutes writing something only to have the whole thing disappear!  I updated this blog earlier today, went to save it and got an error message.  For the next 15 minutes or so I couldn't access this website.  So what, did they have some technical problems today or what?  I wasn't too impressed.

It surprises me that some people update their blogs so frequently and have so much to write about.  My life must be so boring that I have nothing to say.  I could write about what I do from hour to hour but I cant' honestly remember anything worth writing about.  My life must be that dull.  The highlight of my day is probably the drive to work and the peace just before opening up.  From there it's all downhill in boring routine.  Today I was just not in the mood for being pleasant, for showing any interest in anything.  Everything and everyone just annoyed me.  It all seemed so pointless and trivial.  Who really gave a shit what anyone did?  I certainly didn't.