All The Small Things

Turned to crap tonight.

We headed off to the movies, as previously planned, despite the petty rubbish of yesterdays post.

The plan was that BB, the producer, Nicky and I would head to the movies, then out to dinner together. BB and I would then bring Nicky home, and then spend some time together.

What actually happened was this:

Nicky and I went out to a girlfriends house for lunch.

We came home, and went to BB's to pick him up to go to the movies.

He wasn't ready, because he hadn't heard from me, and so he'd assumed that we weren't going anymore. Sorted that out. But then he needed to get changed.

So I bought Nicky home and got her changed into some pretty new clothes, then we went back and got BB.

BB and Nicky and I start driving out of town.

BB's phone rings.

Its BB's ex-wife.

She needs him to bring something over for his youngest son.

So he says "Well, I'm not home at the moment, but I'll bring it round later this evening when I get home"

Then he got off the phone, and looked at me.

"I'm sorry. I'm going to have to go home after the movie."

 --- Keep in mind that at this point we are in one car, and have made plans to have dinner with the Producer, and now we were going to have to come home ---

I say "Oh. Well, I guess that will have to be ok. If the movie gets out early maybe we'll have time to have something quick"

"We'll see how we go babe"

So we get to the movies, and pull into the carpark.

The producer rings.

He's now going to be late because his pet is at the vets, and he has to go pick it up, and he'll meet us in the cinema.

Fine. Sure. No worries.

So Nicky and BB and I get to the door of the cinema.

BB heads off to the ATM, I get the tickets. He comes back. He gets the popcorns etc.

We get settled in the cinema.

The movie starts.

Nicky starts telling me in a loud voice what is about to happen, about two minutes before it happens.

Eventually the producer arrives.

It gets to the exciting part of the film... and Nicky needs to pee.

So I take her out to pee.

And miss the whole good bit.

Sigh.

 

The movie got out at 6.15pm.

BB says, I have to go.

So I suggested that he take my car, do what he needed to do, then come back and get us, so that we could still have dinner as planned.

Sure. Great plan. No worries.

So off he went.

The producer and Nicky and I had dinner, which was very nice.

8.15pm.

The producer apologises, but he really has to go. He has work in the morning, and he only flew home from the land of far far away earlier in the day.

So Nicky and I waited in the restaurant until BB came back to get us.

And he wasn't quite himself. He'd had a rough time doing what he needed to do.

So when he drove us home from town he needed to be on his own.

 

I feel completely disappointed with how the night turned out.

I feel ripped off.

I feel angry with Mr. D., and with BB's ex.

 

I just feel pissed off that life lately just isn't delivering on the promise that each day seems to hold at the outset.

I'm really tired of it all being so bloody hard.

 

All I want is some time with my daughter where we get to have the good time that I plan for us.

I want some time with my boyfriend. PERIOD.

Is that really so much to ask????