All The Small Things

Mood: Frustrated

Mmm. Today was... Interesting.

Dropped Nicky off to Kinda, and wandered over to see my crush. Had a chat, usual silly carry on, making fun of one another. He's telling me about some girl on a commercial who is hot, I'm telling him about that devine young farmer that they've put into the Big Brother house. "How's your boyfriend?" he asks. "Don't really know" I reply.

The semi-quasi-boyfriend thing has come to somewhat of a grinding halt. Not really sure what happened there - but it would appear that he's too busy playing with his car to bother ringing me, and I'm not interested in being ignored. So, I left it by sending him a message just saying, if you want to see me again, give me a call, if not, thats fine too. I don't want to be horrid to him, but there is nothing in me motivating me to call him and find out what he's up to, you know? It really wasn't fair of me to go out with him at all, when I'm stupidly crushing after someone else.

Anyway, I didn't tell my crush that, just that I wasn't seeing the guy anymore. His reaction to this news was to smilingly bag me, which was to be expected.

J and her girlfriend came out to have lunch with me, which was lovely. We spent some time in the park, eating our lunch. I picked up Nicky, and we played in the park for a couple of hours.

When I got home, and started cooking dinner, I had this sudden and overwhelming desire for a steak. It was just before 5, so I called my crush at work, and asked what he was up to tomorrow, if he wanted to go get a steak with me for dinner.

It sounded like he had something else on, but said he'd get back to me tomorrow. The way he said it sounded like he wasn't sure that he wanted to keep with his plans, that sort of... getting a better offer type tone. Like he was planning on pulling the pin on his plans and confirming with me tomorrow. I definitely thought that he was going to make himself available for dinner. Perhaps I misinterpreted it. Who knows. Anyway, I rang and checked with the restaurant - turns out they're closed tomorrow. So I rang my crush back, and said, the restaurants not open anyway, so don't worry about it.

He said, so what are you going to do instead?

I don't know, I said, I might go out.

Righto, well I'll give you a ring and see what you're up to tomorrow.

I'm going to be busy until the afternoon, I said.

Well, I'll call you at one minute past twelve then, won't I?

What do you say to that? I just laughed. Righto then, talk to you tomorrow.

Fin.

 

Can you see why I'm confused here?