Single
So GM came round and his decision was in the negatory. So we have broken up.
Really, after taking that long to think about it, it was pretty much what I had expected. Not what I was hoping for, but what I expected. I told him so. I think we'll still be friends. I hope so.
So now I am single.
And while I am upset, I'm not completely crushed. I'm not crying or anything. Perhaps that makes me heartless. I really love/d him, and I care for him deeply. Can that just stop?
I guess I should be thankful that I had time to adjust to the idea that we might break up, and that I had the chance to say everything that I wanted to say to him. Maybe thats why I feel so OK with it.
I loved being with him, I loved working alongside him, I loved the way he treated me when he treated me well. I loved waking up next to him, and the way he held my hand.
But I won't miss being forgotten regularly, or having to "train" him. I won't miss the drinking. I won't miss how he treated me when he wasn't treating me well.
I'll miss his lovely family.
I won't miss cleaning up his grotty house!! Or teenagers getting smashed!! Or 18ths!!!!!!!!!!
I'll miss being "GM's missus", but I rather love just being Sass, so I think that'll be fine.
I'm not looking forward to the "I told you so's" from my work-sister.
I don't know how I'm going to explain it to Nicky.
That will have to wait for a while anyway - the case is up on Thursday, and I got Mr. D.'s papers from my lovely lawyer on Friday.
His claims were hurtful, but more than that they were amusing. I have never read a document that was so poorly constructed, full of contradiction, spelling errors, and tense changes. I feel more confident after reading it that the judgement will go my way. To give you an idea of the lengths that they went to to discredit me, my affidavit was four pages... Mr. D. and HER, combined, 37 pages.
Yes, she also had an affidavit. Because this is her business and stuff. Clearly. Her. Business. OUR daughter, HER business.
One thing that they say (among claims that I'm evil, ride a broomstick, and don't feed my daughter) is that my personal life is unstable (LOL!! The IRONY!!!) so I'm going to have to keep the events of the past few weeks on the down low until after Thursday at least. Does anyone else think that after six months of awesome stability with GM, its funny that things turn to shit NOW? Not next week, when it wouldn't really matter so much, but right NOW?
I find that amusing.
In a wry little smile kind of way.
But I would (and will) maintain that as far as Nicky is concerned, this is a beautiful stable place to be. I give her a good and happy home, filled with love and laughter and friends. I'm a good mum.
So I guess its time to drag out and brush off the old quiz!!
I think that last sentence gives the impression that I'm excited to be single. I'm not. I don't even know how I feel. Apathetic perhaps. But thats not right either. Maybe I'm just tired and over it, but generally happy with my life.
I am actually, despite everything, pretty happy with my life right now. Thats got to be a good thing, doesn't it.
