My Crush
He's tall. Really tall. Demands attention when walking into a room tall, but not banging head on doorframes tall. You know what I mean here ladies. He's got a fantastic build, broad shoulders, he looks like an athelete. He carries himself well too. He's poetry in motion, I can't not look at him.
He's got dark, wavy hair, that's always messy and daggy, and nearly-but-not-quite at the point of being unkempt. Very cute. I want to touch it. (I know how wrong that sounds...) I wonder if its thick and pettable? It looks it.
He has the most beautiful skin, and he's nearly always got a five o'clock shadow. He's got a strong jawline, not a chiselled face, but he has strong features. I'd like to run my fingers softly over his jawline, I wonder if it's prickly, or soft? I wonder if his skin would feel warm? I wonder what that spot just behind his ear would smell like?
He has the most amazing eyes. They're kind of a blue-y green colour, and there is nothing better than gazing into them. I love when we are talking, and you know how usually, you just kind of keep eating, or watching where you are stepping, or looking at the scenery or whatever? I like to just turn and look him in the eyes while he's talking. Suddenly, we both get very very still, and time slows down. He's talking, but his eyes are doing something else. He loses track of what he's saying, and that's ok, 'cos mostly, I'm not listening anyways.
He has a beautiful mouth, gorgeous smile, and his lips, mmm. Honestly, I spend a great deal of my time thinking about what it would be like to kiss him. I wonder if he's a good kisser? I wonder if he's gentle, or if he's one of those people who applies too much pressure, or not quite enough? I kind of think it would be weird to kiss him now - what if he was a disappointment?
I think I'd risk it! (Given the opportunity that is...)
I wonder what it would be like to hold his hand. I wonder what it would be like to have him hold me. I wonder whether he would brush my hair out of my eyes, or put his arm around my waist, or snuggle up on the couch with me. I wonder if he would be tender, treat me well. I wonder if I would feel as safe with him if we were together as I do now.
I wonder if he would take things slow with me. I wonder if he has the patience for the kind of relationship I need. I wonder if that's what he is doing by not making a move. I wonder if this is the time when we get to know one another, to build that trust. I wonder if he knows what he is doing?
I wonder what it would be like if he was mine.
