Giving it up
Mood: Confused somewhat
Well. Well. Well.
Three holes in the ground.
(Thankyou, thankyou, I'll be here all week, try the veal.)
The crush has finally crushed my spirit. Tonight was supposed to be the night where this whole situation got sorted. Where answers were forthcoming. Where I was told, in English, what the status of this relationship is.
Instead, we watch a movie that completely blows my mind away (Kokoda - well worth seeing if you haven't as yet, though be prepared for some gore. It's a movie about war people, what else do you expect.)
We then went out and had dinner - which was nice, but there was constant banter about being nice / not nice / liking each other / not liking each other / appropriate behaviour / inappropriate behaviour / compliments / insults.
Oh, and his ex-girlfriend is coming to stay next week. She's moving from the other side of the country to somewhere quite substantially closer. Still not within walking distance, but definitely do-able in a day trip. This was sort of an aside, which was funny (perculiar, not ha ha). I wonder if they'll get back together?
And I actually realised something quite important tonight.
I have some really fantastic male friends. They are fun to go out with, they make me laugh, and I have an awesome time with them.
Is it really necessary for me to crush on this person, with whom I have just pure fun? Or would it be better to NOT crush on him, and have him in my life as a friend forever?
I rather begin to think that the latter may be better.
Now I just have to re-educate my heart, and all will be well.
Oh, and he invited me to go out with him on Saturday night. Don't really know what to say to that actually. I reckon it'd be fun! But at the same time, is this an activity that will aid the re-education process? Doubtful.
Oh, bugger it all to buggery. Who even knows.
