All The Small Things

Mar 23, 2006 at 14:22 o\clock

Do you realise...

by: Sassy1

Its been months (plural and more than 2) since I last had sex?

And a month since I kissed that young man... (Boy - do I regret that on reflection. Stupid decisions are made when I consult with Dr. Vodka. He gives very bad advice. Don't listen to him!!)

 

I must be growing up. I'm not missing it at all.

 

I really do think that I'm over the whole self-medicating with physical affection thing. There is fun to be had - no doubt about that. But I'm really not that sort of girl, you know? It doesn't make me feel good about myself to think that I behaved like that, and I won't be doing it again.

 

I haven't been to the pub in a month. I don't miss that either.

Or the people. The boys have no respect for themselves, drinking themselves stupid and behaving badly, and I'm just as bad really. There is no dignity in behaving like that. I just have no desire to be there at all.

 

Funny though. I kind of thought that there would be a decision made about it, I thought I'd have to decide that this wasn't the path I wanted to follow anymore, but it just sort of happened.

With a whimper.

Glad though. Very, Very, Very Glad.

Comments for this entry:

  1. quoteSponky wrote at Mar 24, 2006 at 01:19 o\clock:Yeah, I think most big life changing things do just happen. I know all the major changes in my life have, and when I try to make a conscious decision to change this or that, I usually fall back.
  2. quoteSassy1 wrote at Mar 24, 2006 at 09:22 o\clock:Hi Sponky!! How\'s the new digs treating you? I think your right about the falling back thing... as my nails can testify!
  3. quoteSponky wrote at Mar 27, 2006 at 02:57 o\clock:I think you may have already read it, but I posted about the new place here http://toomanylosers.blogspot.com/2006/03/grr-argh.html



    I have a terrible problem biting my nails, but not just that, the skin around them are well, because they get dry. I finally went and got some cream the other day to try and soften them and help me stop. So far so good.

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