WOW!
How calm and collected was I when I wrote that last entry!
Not feeling quite so calm today - feeling extremely toey, slightly irritable, and very confused.
So really, what has changed?
We're friends.
We talk about all the same stuff that we always talked about.
We hang out, just like we always did.
We talk on the phone, just like we always did.
The only thing we aren't doing is HAVING THE SEX.
I miss that.
DEAR GOD I MISS THAT.
Particularly when he makes comments about how much of an excellence that part of our relationship was, and how he thinks about it (and you know I'm thinking about it too... I'm just thanking the lord that its winter and he's got his sexy arms covered up with his bulky jumpers so that I don't go completely insane.)... you can see how this is messing with my head.
So, in closing...
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But I am remaining the ever solid, very reliable, no sooking, not-taking-advantage-of-BB, FRIEND.
I deserve a bloody medal for keeping my hormones in check.
AT LEAST.
