I Knew It...
Mood: Really Fucked Up!
Listening to: All American Rejects - Paper Heart
I knew it, happens every fucking time.
Phil came online.. was first time id spoken to him in two weeks since i dumped him in a rather nasty mannor and i tryed to say sorry, knowin it wouldnt help just had to tell him n the most i got was..
Sick Of Being Treated Like Shit! says:
There's a reason for everything! An anyways, if you wanted to be friend's you would've said last time, so bye bye, im finally getting on with my life so just leave me be!
Then he went offline..
I fuck everything up it is soo so.. i dno wht it is but it hurts like hell :/
Dan and i (my ex) are talking about us n why we broke up.. after him telling me he still liked me and i feel so shit coz i like him still but have feeling for his mate who likes me too and well.. i trust his mate more thn him now. I really dno wht im going to do this is all so fucked up i cant take it...
Im snappin an elastic band around my wrist n have been all day coz i felt so shit n its ment to stop me from cuttin but its not workin coz im soo fuckin close too..
But im going to see Dan and Mart tomoz n if they see they will know why n talk to me bout it and i cant let them see.. but its soo hot :/
All i can say now is.. Phil you will always have a special place in my heart like a promised...
Fuck sake..
Han..
