Why Do I Feel Invisible...?

You feel miserable and sad.   Yup...Almost all of the time. I have the rare happy mood but thats only when im hyper on summin like powerade.. :/

 

You feel exhausted a lot of the time with no energy . Yep. It usually effects me doing school work coz i just dont have the energy to do any of it.

 

You feel as if even the smallest tasks are sometimes impossible. Some of the time.. Or i just ignore what people ask me to do coz im just not in the mood to move and feel like theres no point.

 

You seldom enjoy the things that you used to enjoy-you may be off sex or food or may 'comfort eat' to excess. I rarly eat anymore.. i feel like looking at myself is to hard to bare so i just dont wana eat.. i also can find any energy to get up n get food. And i also used to do lots of sports clubs and used to be good and now i have just dropped all of them.. i just dont feel the plesure from em anymore.

You feel very anxious sometimes. I feel anxious alot of the time..and like i cant wait for things like going to school i spend restless nights worried about going to school.

You don't want to see people or are scared to be left alone. Social activity may feel hard or impossible. Yup.. i lock myself in my room for hrs on end not wanting to see or talk to any1. Im almost totally reclused.. And soicial activitly is extreamly rare now. i used to go out all the time now i only go out with people i can trust coz of fear of being around so many people in town.

You find it difficult to think clearly. All the time.. i just from subjects, i forget what im saying in the middle of setences i cant make even the simplest of deciosions without just wanting to scream.

You feel like a failure and/or feel guilty a lot of the time. Some of the time.. i just feel like if done sometime wrong to everyone and that they would be better off without me.

You feel a burden to others. Sorta...

You sometimes feel that life isn't worth living. All the time.. I have practicly nothing left and no one left.. i just want to die almost all the time.

You can see no future. There is a loss of hope. You feel all you've ever done is make mistakes and that's all that you ever will do.Thats right. I think i may aswell just go now instead of have to go on like this forever..

 

You feel irritable or angry more than usual. alot more than usual. I used to be rather polite and nice but now i just snap at everyone...

You feel you have no confidence. No.. I dont have any confidence. No self-Esteem whatso ever.. I lost that aaages ago.

You spend a lot of time thinking about what has gone wrong, what will go wrong or what is wrong about yourself as a person. You may also feel guilty sometimes about being critical of others (or even thinking critically about them). Yup. Im always analyising myself wondering whats wrong with me.. why i had to end up like this.. what i do to become such a failiure... I also always feel guilty about lying to myself when im trying to cheer myself up.

 

You feel that life is unfair. no... Life is unfair.. i ended up with shit looks, shit life.. and nothing to be proud of..

You have difficulty sleeping or wake up very early in the morning and can't sleep again. You seem to dream all night long and sometimes have disturbing dreams. Yeaa exactly that except i wouldnt call my dreams isturbing they are always different ways of me commiting suicide and they seem to help.. give me more idea that are possiblities...

You feel that life has/is 'passing you by.' It has n now i just want to left it compleatly..

You may have physical aches and pains which appear to have no physical cause, such as back pain. Um.. alot of the time yup... And the teachers at skl say im just lying to try go home...

Yoo ofen have suicidal thoughts or day dreams. Yea... but i dont really mind them.. im kinda used to them and i just wish they would come true..