Mood: sad/lovely/isolated
Listening to: lifehouse - spin
Well , i was siting on my bed... jus thinking, and was reading something that i wrote about a year ago! I used to write alot.. in the past, when i was upset, feeling sad or angry. It usually made me feel better, when i had nobody to talk to, or turn to, as i was still getting my anger and hurt out, by writing down my thoughts. I usualy ended up throwing the pages away.. I didnt think it would be safe for me to keep it. Incase any one found it! My life has been kinna complicated, in its weird and wonderful ways, and im rather scared about even writing this, incase it sends to anybody! :( but o wel.. worth a try! I'l never reveal my actual identity just incase. So wer do i start? well okay.. im a teenage girl.. and along with that.. comes many problems! My mum and dad are spilt up.. i live with my dad and my mum now lives two hours away! not a great thing wen ur my age.. missing out on the shopping, girly chats..comforting.. etc! However, my dads great and i get on along with him!they broke up 4 years ago.. that was the worst day of my life.. in its own strange way! i will never forget the nite they broke up! I was upstairs.. with my younger brother.. watching tv , and they wer arguin, so mum got in2 a rage, left, and took my aunties house keys with her.. cuz we wer lookn aftr my aunties house! dad got me n my brother in the car with him.. took a knife ,and we drove 2 my aunties! i tried 2 talk sense to him but he wudn listen.. my mum had been havin an affair :( and the man.. she was hvin an affair with.. was in my auntys house with her! :( dad saw him.. he startd banging on the window with the knife.. and sayn he was going 2 kill them both! mum finaly let him in.. and he ran and tried 2 kill the man.. with the knife.. mum tried 2 get the knife off him.. and he ran and stabed her hand..and the blood kept coming out :( it was reli horrible! i had to try and get him off her.. and it was hard, but eventualy the man.. whom my mum had been havn an affair with.. came and got him n got him 2 the ground and wudnt let him up!Then the police then came.. me my mum n bro had ran away from my aunties to a nearby house and caled the police from there!they took my dad away to the nearest station and my mum 2 hospital :( and i went 2 hospital with her! i hav nvr had such a worse nite in my life and wil remember it til the day i die! my hands are geting sore now typing.. but i needed to tell somebody! i have only told one person the proper story and someday im sure i will tell more, as the only way i will be able to get used to it and accept it as if i talk to people about my thoughts etc! they speak now.. but wil never be the same again :(
