Letters

Mood: Doin' ok right now.
Listening to: Shane play video games

Jenn,

  You were a good friend. You took a scared 17 year old, who was depressed, suicidal, & in bad need of a friend, & gently tucked her under your wing. I was terrified being sent to that group home where you lived. You left shortly after I arrived but you checked on us frequently. I left the home shortly after you did that summer but thought of you & Michelle often.

  Imagine my surprise & delight when you showed up at my adult learning centre. You were the best thing there. We hung out, we shared lunch. It was great. That September was the best. Then you got sick. As I was sitting down thanking God for my blessed dinner on Thanksgiving, October 9th, 1989. You passed away quietly. I had never lost a friend before. I was beside myself with grief. I visited you every year for five years. Then I stopped. My life went on I guess. I learned I was moving recently & decided that I wanted to see you one more time before I left. You amazed me yet again as I know now it was you guiding me that day..

 My boyfriend & I decided to go to your resting place, although the graveyard had changed a lot in ten years. I couldn't find your stone & I was getting anxious. Then outta the blue, I heard someone call my name. I followed the direction of the voice & there under my feet, you were. I cried because I knew it was you that called my name. Thank you for helping me find you again.

 I have moved now, & am farther away then I ever have been, but with this blog I will be able to keep you, my uncle, & other friends that I have had that have left my life in different ways close to me again. I miss you Jenn. There are times, like now when I wish more than ever that you were still here tucking me safely under your wing. I could use that right now....I'm scared, & when you were there I wasn't. I hope that wherever you are, you're happy & at peace.

 All my everlasting friendship & love,

       ~Theresa~ xoxoxoxo :-) Good night my friend <3