the rain outside
well, i'm leaving my husband. he's just now coming to that understanding. i just told him i was going to stay with my parents for awhile - they are older and need me with them. but now i've rented an apartment and am moving in june 1st. i get up every morning and my stomach is upset. i just go do what i have to do with it feeling that way. i can't stop it - my nerves always affect my stomach. somewhere down the road i lost my independence. i don't know where. i'm afraid to go to the mall by myself. i'm afraid to travel by myself. i've even lost the confidence of picking out my own curtains in my own house without asking him if they're ok. there are other issues - but this is public and i'm not going to post those. i'm scared to death. but, my trust is in God that He'll keep me going. that's all i have - that and my children.
