http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea That's the world from my perspective - with a free weblog from blogigo. en SweetPea SweetPea Mon, 12 Jun 2006 21:56:07 +0200 daily 1 the panic attacks are getting worse. is this what independence is?  It's scary. i've got to make it - one day at a time. Mon, 12 Jun 2006 21:56:07 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/one-day/7/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/one-day/7/ well, i'm leaving my husband.  he's just now coming to that understanding.  i just told him i was going to stay with my parents for awhile - they are older and need me with them.  but now i've rented an apartment and am moving in june 1st.  i get up every morning and my stomach is upset.  i just go do what i have to do with it feeling that way.  i can't stop it - my nerves always affect my stomach.  somewhere down the road i lost my independence.  i don't know where.  i'm afraid to go to the mall by myself.  i'm afraid to travel by myself.  i've even lost the confidence of picking out my own curtains in my own house without asking him if they're ok.  there are other issues - but this is public and i'm not going to post those.  i'm scared to death.  but, my trust is in God that He'll keep me going.  that's all i have  - that and my children. Fri, 26 May 2006 15:45:34 +0200 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/the-rain-outside/6/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/the-rain-outside/6/ Yesterday was OK.  Work wasn't bad.  I finished my reports and just worked on mundane stuff.  My uncle fell and broke his shoulder.  I had to take him lunch today.  He looks so old and feeble.  It just magnifies the "old age" factor.  Scares me.  He's completely dependent on other people right now.  I feel so sorry for him. Mom and Dad are so blessed with their good health.  I'm so glad.  We went out to eat last night.  Of course I was in bed by 8:30 or 9:00.  I bought a new book to read and I have another one waiting when I get done with this one.  It keeps my mind off of things. Take care ... ily Wed, 15 Feb 2006 21:05:56 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/OK-I-m-going-to-make-it-through-this/5/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/OK-I-m-going-to-make-it-through-this/5/ Went to the mall this morning.  I had a facial - it was so nice!!!  I haven't treated myself like that for a long time.  Going out to eat in just a bit then going to mom's this evening.  I'm having weird dreams.  I'd love to have them interpreted sometime.  Seems I always have this one about either being lost in a school or not having my homework or I show up at school and have no clothes on.  I read somewhere that's because you feel like your life is out of control (it is).  Oh well.   Talk to ya this evening! Sat, 28 Jan 2006 21:46:29 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Relaxing/4/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Relaxing/4/ I liked the talk we had today.  I see new sides to you every day.  I guess though you never really know someone until you live with them.  Think that's possible?? Tue, 24 Jan 2006 18:39:32 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Commitment./3/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Commitment./3/ Didn't do much today.  Went to church.  Ate dinner with mom and dad.  Then went to dd's house to help with the car.  Now I'm at mom and dad's.  Mom isn't feeling well so I'm staying with them.  I missed your call.  Mon, 23 Jan 2006 01:44:40 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Today/2/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Today/2/ Just beginning this little jaunt.  Don't know if I'll like it or not but here I am.  I'm doing this for one reason and one reason only - you know who you are. Fri, 20 Jan 2006 20:04:03 +0100 http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Just-Beginning/1/ http://www.blogigo.co.uk/SweetPea/Just-Beginning/1/