24 September 2005 - Fine Fine Weather.....
soon i'll b gg bk to work in 2 wks time... times flies... my maternity leave ending liao.... honestly speaking, i kinda of miss work.... looking forward to go bk.. but i think all humans r d same.... after u hv rest for too long, u bcame lazy liao.... tat's how i feel now lah...
cant help but worry if d maid can handle d kids... though i know tat she has some kinda standard, but juz cant help worrying especially ah girl... she's at d stage of most active... running abt, climbing up n down, learning to talk....
will definitely miss them badly during my 9 hrs away frm home..... wat to do??? hv to slowly get use to it lor.....
he slept in d hall last nite again... even though we slept at abt 2am, he still can wake up later, go to hall n continue w/ his sleep.... can he not do tat for at least a mth??? i think not possible.....
getting so sick n tired tat i dun even bother to say anything.... sometimes i even dun bother to look at him or talk to him when he comes bk..... i noe tat dis is real bad but juz cant help it..... afraid tat if we talk, i cant help but voice out my displeasure, we will sure end up quarelling..... if he wld to come up to me, i wld juz smile n turn my head away... to him, he nv ever thought tat there's anything wrong....
taking yest for eg. he was home real early,,,, i said tat there's cockcroaches in d car n he need to clear it up... so he spent almost 3 hrs+ cleaning up d car came bk at abt 2+, 3pm. straight home, he came into d pc room n say if i was done w/ d com... he needs to email some customer.... i stood up 10 mins later n frm 3pm, he was stuck to d com emailing customer + doing other things which i dun noe wat + playing games till 8pm in d nite...... tat was his day.... he finished w/ d com at 8pm, spent an hour in the hall w/ me n ah girl, then we went to fetch my mum off work.... reached hm at 10.15pm n he went straight into d com room again n close d door till 11+pm... sometimes i wonder wat me n d family rank in his heart... mayb nos. 1 frm d last.
we had been waiting for the insurance quote frm one of my fren who was supposed to send via email... i knew d quote oreadi arrived but he din tell me anything abt the quote.. rather he wld tell his mum abt it.... wat d hell on earth has getting insurance for my son has it got to do w/ her???????? i'm reali getting very irriated... i dun mind him consulting his mum for opinion or anything but d minimum, he shld at least discuss w/ me abt d insurance first n not wait for me to ask if d quote arrives or tell me later... though i might not know much abt insurance but i think it's shld b juz mutual respect tat he tells me abt it........
getting real irriated, annoyed, pissed off..... reali feel like banging d table now...... sometimes, i feel tat i'm slipping into depression...... reali..... but if i wld tell him, he wld think tat i'm silly..... forget abt telling him anything abt all happenings to me..... 
