This is my Strangely Insane World

Mood: Ok
Listening to: The birds and the bugs

I've figured it out.

It's not great, but it's not bad either.

I have figured out the meaning of life.

Check back here soon and youcan read my opinion.

Mood: Shitty
Listening to: the air ... noises in my head.

I am writing here for no one to see, but because I really want to yell something.

I am just feeling like shit, and I have no one that I really feel like I can talk with, that's why the computer gets to be my ear.

I am not planning to do this,

but right now I am reminded of what it feels like to feel like there is nothing to smile about.

I wanna scream, cry, and die.  (not really, but I am thinking that way).

In a day or two I'll feel better, but I really have to get my shit together soon, because my body, my heart, etc. are not doing so well.

Bad thing is, I have a tendency to push anyone away when I feel like this, only to make things worse.

I guess I hope this will help me deal a little better.

Then again, right now I am wondering if isolation from everything and everyone might not actually be better than anything else.

I really don't have a clue.  Just know that my head feels like it is just a grenade on the verge of explosion.

I guess I'll stop now ... for now.