"You Cannot Destroy Me"

I started college yesterday and it takes me like
an hour to get there, so I have to get up proper early
so I can shower, wash my hair, dry my hair, straighten my hair,
get dressed, feed the cat, feed the dogs, make sure the cat doesn't
jump off the tables, make sure the dogs don't eat the cat, find socks,
find shoes, get college stuff ready and THEN I needed to make sure that
I made my train, cause the student bus doesn't start running until monday.

BLAH, you'd think that would tire me out enough but when I got out of the train station the rain was terrible and I got absolutely soaking before I even got into the college.
Then I got lost, surprise surprise, but my tutor group seem okay at least.
All my lessons are like spread out into different buildings so because the weather was being a prick I got soaked trying to find the effin buildings which wasn't good,
then I felt too nervous and sick to eat so I was starving and my belly was rumbling in lessons
which isn't really a great first impression.

Then today the only person I knew was hungover so she went home at break time
so I had to geg in with her friends who I met yesterday and I felt like a right
weirdo followin them round at dinner; i would have felt like a bigger weirdo if I was aimlessly wandering around on my own, though.
They seemed nice enough though.

So yeah I got loads of homework.
I have to read a book about stupid afghans, I have to make up a dance, practice a song to perform and practice a monologue.
Like, really, this is all for tuesday/wednesday&friday.
The book; I dunno when thats for but I really don't wanna read it. D;

So like tomorrow I have to go to my cousins so she can teach me a dance because i'm the worst dancer in the world and people already think i'm a weirdo at this place I really don't wanna get up and do the robot n make everyone think i'm weirder than I actually am, don't think that'd help me make friends, like.

SO IM TIRED.
But i'm still goin out tomorrow night,
so it's okay.

(Y)

I'm drunk.

I hate everyone.

:]

Blah =[

It's not even 1am on a saturday night and i'm sat at home
Not happy.
I should be out jumpin round like a maniac

But noooo, all my mates have no money
You don't even need that much money to go out
Well at least I went out on thursday to Blackpool,
pure drained me of all my energy.

I've never been so hungover in my life, I don't usually get hangovers but friday morning I couldn't keep a spoon full of soup down
D;

Was funny though!

5 days until my results.
Dreading it..

Wow, I haven't wrote in here for like over a year.

I just had to go back and edit loads of stuff aswell cause it made me cringe loads,
yeah so I don't talk to Ami and Joanne anymore because I left school 2 months ago and it's less just over a week until I get my GCSE results.
I'm so not looking forward to that.

Well yeah, i've been drinking loads and going out loads lately but the annoying thing is when my friends tell me they're gonna come out and then they wait for me get ready and get my money sorted etc, then they cancel on me.

To be honest, I don't mind being cancelled on that much but when it's last minute, it's just fucking annoying. Cause then I can't even make other plans and my nights ruined.

Last week I asked Gemma and Louise if they wanted to come to Blackpool tomorrow to go out and both of them said yeah, so I called Gemma before and she said "Oh, you didn't give me enough notice so I can't go."
I was like, what the fuck? I told you last week. Really. She's being dead weird with me lately, if she has something to say to me she really needs to just say it before I go mad.

And Louise, she hasn't even bothered sorting anything out and I tried to talk to her on MSN before and got blanked. So I called her mobile; it was turned off, called her house phone; she wasn't home.
What the fuuuuck.

I have the most unreliable mates in the world, and my family? Don't even get me started.

Other than that, i'm in a good mood. (Y)
No lads confusing me or anything, it's all good.

For now like.

Listening to: Green Day - Are We The Waiting

I don't even know anymore. Everyone thinks i'm so happy because thats what i've decided to make them think. Unlike some people, i'm not gonna fucking whine about every little shitty thing that happens in my life, cause really whats the point? I don't want pity or sympathy, cause I fucking hate it, I wanna get on with my life.

In school, it's kinda crap. Ami & Joanne have chosen a great time to start pissing me off. I was saying something about a lesson, and Ami said "And you make it so obvious, Kaytee! ^^" And I was like, okay? Whenever I try to make a point, she patronizes me and says something like 'Well done, Kaytee' I just feel like fucking ripping her annoying head off.

On a brighter note, i'm going to see InMe in October for Gemma's birthday and MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE in November for my birthday.<3 Yay.

Okay so, i'm in one of the best moods i've been in in a while. It's probably because of wednesday, even though that kinda depressed me a bit too. But anyway yeah i'll just copy and paste what I wrote in my MySpace blog about Wednesday;

Me and Steph went to the Matt Willis signing at HMV but when we got there the man said we couldn't go in for the signing cause we didn't have tickets we didn't know we needed. So like we went back to HMV later and we heard loads of screams then seen Matt go into some room, then we stood there for like an hour or something looking at the same DVDs trying to find ways to see him, then the security guard came in and asked us to show him our singles and I told him i'd go buy one right now, then he was talking to some other random security guard. When they stopped talking he said 'Okay everyone out' or something, and as we were about to leave he went 'Girls! Heres your two tickets blah blah blah go to the back of the que and say I gave you the last two tickets' HAHAHAHA SCORE, we were pure screaming and hugged the security guard cause hes proper boss =]

And we both got hugs off Matt HAHAHAHAH  

Mood: Shitty.

Two of my 'best friends' have got boyfriends who are more important to them than I am =] How great

Yeah, at first I was happy they had someone and they were happy, but now, it's just fucking annoying. 'Oooh I love you I need youuuu' Yeah, don't fucking come crawling back to me when you break up because he cheats on you. What the fuck happened to 'I'm 14 why would I want a boyfriend? Thats stupid!!' or 'Friends are always more important than boyfriends'
Bullshit..

I've said it before and i'll say it again, I need  better fucking friends.
Ones who won't fucking ditch me to go get laid.