"You Cannot Destroy Me"

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Spill Canvas - Secret Oath

I've never felt like this about anyone before
And I actually told them, and they didn't fuck me around or play games and it went well and yeah =]

Mood: STUPID
Listening to: Lost Prophets

Dammit.

=[

Stupid Kaytee.
Stupid stupid.

Mood: ¬¬
Listening to: My Chemical Romance - Vampires Will Never Hurt You

Eee wtf
Life annoys me;
Everyones older than me
Everyones in love
People don't take me seriously
I get patronized when people find out my age
People expect me to go out of my way to please them [nothx]
I'm supposed to be some person whos just there when someone needs me, not when I need them
I'm portrayed as some bitch who couldn't give a shit and loves to hurt people
I get too fucking angry too fucking much


Stupid stupid.
Maybe I just fucking bring it all on myself, I can't control my anger. I can't control any of my fucking emotions for that matter, but everything pisses me off. Like walking in the corridor and some fucking slow cunt is infront of me WALKING LIKE THEY'VE GOT ALL FUCKING DAY AND LIKE I'VE GOT ALL FUCKING DAY. NEWSFLASH: I haven't!!!! That put me in a bad mood for most of the day and the most little things triggered me and i'd just fucking lash out at everyone.

Grrr, anger management is bullshit. "Maybe screaming into this pillow would help? :)" ¬¬ "Kicking your head in would probably be better. :)"

Mood: Happy. =]
Listening to: Random stuff

Heh
I haven't wrote in here in ages. ^^
I'm in a very good mood, which is unusual

My laptops finally fixed, so yay. It's kinda annoying me now though, wobbling as I type. Ugh. Anyway yeah, today was good.
I got really wasted last night and I spilled beer all over my laptop, which had only just been fixed, and cost £50, and the J key fucking spazzed. It was just flooding people with Js, it wouldn't stop fucking JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJing, then the k started and the u and the i. So I ripped the J and the K out and underneath the J key all the little things had snapped. So I was like HOSHIT and I rang Karl like all crying and stuff 'MY MUMS GONNA KILL MEEE AHHH' and whatnot. &He was like telling me to calm down and stuff which I didn't, so I just tried to go to sleep and I couldn't. Then my dad came up with all this food that I couldn't eat cause I felt fucking sick, so he put it on the desk and it fucking stunk my room up. It smelled like that and budweiser, the budweiser has sunk into my carpet and I can't get the smell out. Erk.
Anyway, I woke up this morning and I got ready to go to town then I was waiting for ages cause I woke up at 9, so I thought i'd go try fix my laptop. And cause the things under the key had snapped, I was trying to connect them together and I was like '...No chance in hell'
But then I kinda connected them and I put it in the little gap with the little squidgey thing, and the key actually fit on! And the letters weren't spazzing anymore and THE J WORKED.
It was a fucking miracle. XD

And town was good too, it was sunny ^____^
Everyone was at the peir. Okay, maybe not everyone, but it was close enough. Even though there was a lot of drunken fighting, twas fun. =]

So I had a good day but like, EVERYONE has SOMEONE, and I realized that today. Fucking everyone. I'm just too pathetic to get someone, I don't even know why I can't, but oh well.
I get attached to people when they just don't give a shit about me, and I feel unwanted and it just fucks my mind up. &I'm determined to get someone, to prove to myself that I actually can, &I just like.. have someone. 



A LOT of people had Slipknot shirts on, seriously, I've never seen so many Slipknot fans in my life. Well I would if I went to see them, but like my mum won't let me because they scare her, I dunno what that has to do with me going to see them like. o.o

Oh well. =]
Gonna see what else there is to do at 1:44am now.