"You Cannot Destroy Me"

Honestly, what the fuck goes through guy's heads? I don't get it. Fuuuck :/

Listening to: Green Day - Are We The Waiting

I don't even know anymore. Everyone thinks i'm so happy because thats what i've decided to make them think. Unlike some people, i'm not gonna fucking whine about every little shitty thing that happens in my life, cause really whats the point? I don't want pity or sympathy, cause I fucking hate it, I wanna get on with my life.

In school, it's kinda crap. Ami & Joanne have chosen a great time to start pissing me off. I was saying something about a lesson, and Ami said "And you make it so obvious, Kaytee! ^^" And I was like, okay? Whenever I try to make a point, she patronizes me and says something like 'Well done, Kaytee' and everything inside me tells me to bite her fucking head off, but I have to just shrug it off and act like I don't care.

On a brighter note, i'm going to see InMe in October for Gemma's birthday and MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE in November for my birthday.<3 Fucking boss.

Okay so, i'm in one of the best moods i've been in in a while. It's probably because of wednesday, even though that kinda depressed me a bit too. But anyway yeah i'll just copy and paste what I wrote in my MySpace blog about Wednesday;

Me and Steph went to the Matt Willis signing at HMV but when we got there the man said we couldn't go in for the signing cause we didn't have tickets we didn't know we needed. So like we went back to HMV later and we heard loads of screams then seen Matt go into some room, then we stood there for like an hour or something looking at the same DVDs trying to find ways to see him, then the security guard came in and asked us to show him our singles and I told him i'd go buy one right now, then he was talking to some other random security guard. When they stopped talking he said 'Okay everyone out' or something, and as we were about to leave he went 'Girls! Heres your two tickets blah blah blah go to the back of the que and say I gave you the last two tickets' HAHAHAHA SCORE, we were pure screaming and hugged the security guard cause hes proper boss =]

And we both got hugs off Matt HAHAHAHAH

So yeah i'm an official stalker, lmao

After 4/5 years of being obsessed with him and dreaming of just meeting him it finally happened and it actually made me feel kinda pathetic for wanting it so much all those years, after all i'm 'just another fan' to Matt for 10 seconds in his life then he forgets who I am, i'm not saying it's his fault or anything because it's not. But why should he care anyway? I am just another fan. I guess I just came back to reality, even though i'm still completely obsessed with him and i'd give anything to be with him which is, again, pretty sad considering I don't even know him. But I feel like I do, through his songs and through his interviews and biographies, but I may aswell just forget it. He has a slutty girlfriend who always cheats on him but whom he loves anyway, so I just have to get used to it. This is me in a good mood, kinda depressing like XD

But, I spose if you want something to happen so badly it will =] And we made it happen, cause we could have just left and went home after the security guard told us the tickets were sold out and we couldn't get in the line, but we didn't, we stayed and stalked and were determined to meet him which we did. So fucking score =D  

Yeah also, things are going good with that whole relationship problem I had. I broke up with my girlfriend and I think shes stopped liking me now so thats good and even though i'm not with the guy I like yet i'm enjoying being single again hahaha, FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Oh, and, Jeff Hardy's back in wrestling, Might be going to see InMe, and My Chemical Romance are playing live tomorrow so I can tape it =]

<3

Mood: Confused, Pissed off and overall shit.
Listening to: Sill Canvas

Well, I liked this guy for months and then I told him, and he told me he liked me back. Then things carried on as they were and I still liked him, but it didn't seem like he liked me. Like whenever I asked him to hang out he'd be busy and stuff, so I was wondering whether he stopped liking me or he liked someone else etc.. Then I met Rachel and I liked her, then we met and she asked me out the following night so I just thought okay since it wasn't going anywhere with Chris anyway and I was convinced I didn't like him anymore. So things were going okay and I liked her, then on Wednesday I was talking to Chris on MSN and I kinda realized that I did still like him. And I told him about what was going on then he realized it was him I liked and he told me he did like me, and he said he would go out with me but we didn't really know each other that well in person so we agreed to meet more. So I broke up with Rachel because I didn't feel right staying with her knowing I liked someone else no matter how bad breaking up with her for someone else is. But now, whenever I ask Chris to hang out hes busy :/ So like, wtf!? I still really like Rachel but I still really like Chris so I dunno what the fuck to do anymore

Mood: Shitty.

Two of my 'best friends' have got boyfriends who are more important to them than I am =] How great

Yeah, at first I was happy they had someone and they were happy, but now, it's just fucking annoying. 'Oooh I love you I need youuuu' Yeah, don't fucking come crawling back to me when you break up because he cheats on you. What the fuck happened to 'I'm 14 why would I want a boyfriend? Thats stupid!!' or 'Friends are always more important than boyfriends'
Bullshit..

I've said it before and i'll say it again, I need  better fucking friends.
Ones who won't fucking ditch me to go get laid.