WHISPERING
Mood: TALKING TO MY SOUL
Listening to: THE BIRDS OUTSIDE MY WINDOW
HAVE YOU EVER HAD TO TALK TO YOURSELF? I DO ALOT OF THAT AT TIMES. IF I HAVE A QUESTION THAT I AM PONDERING,I LOOK INWARD AND SAY"SELF WHAT DO YOU THINK?" I KNOW THIS PROBABLY SOUNDS SILLY BUT, IT IS WHAT I DO. IT GIVES ME TIME TO THINK BEFORE I REACT. I USED TO REACT BEFORE I WOULD THINK THINGS OUT. NOW, I KNOW THAT IS NOT A GOOD WAY TO BE. LIFE WAS VERY UNFAIR TO ME. TO THIS DAY I DO NOT REALLY UNDERSTAND FULLY WHY WE GO THROUGH CERTAIN THINGS. I LEARNED TO NEVER GIVE UP. FOR ONCE YOU GIVE UP, YOU LOSE.. I DO KNOW THAT FROM MY LIFE'S EXPERIENCES I HAVE LEARNED EMPATHY.I ALWAYS HAD SYMPATHY. THE TWO ARE VERY DIFFERENT IN THEIR OWN RIGHT. EMPATHY: THE PROJECTION OF ONE'S OWN PERSONALITY INTO THR PERSONALITY OF ANOTHER IN ORDER TO UNDERSTAND THEM BETTER; TO SHARE IN ANOTHER'S EMOTIONS OR FEELING. IN OTHER WORDS"TRY WALKING IN SOMEONE ELSES SHOES". SYMPATHY:A MUTUAL LIKING OR UNDERSTANDING ARISING FROM SAMENESS OF FEELING. IN OTHER WORDS"I FEEL YOUR PAIN" PEOPLE SEEM TO LIKE TO TALK WITH ME IN GENERAL. I GUESS BECAUSE I NEVER TELL ANOTHERS SECERT OR MAKE THEM FEEL STUPID. I ALWAYS EMBRACE WHAT EVER SOME ONE NEEDS TO TALK ABOUT. I GUESS WHEN MY LIFE WAS SO HORRIBLE I ALWAYS WISHED I HAD SOMEONE WHO WOULD JUST LISTEN TO WHAT I NEEDED TO SAY. MY MOM HATED ME FROM THE GET GO. SHE TOLD ME THAT MY DAD TRICKED HER INTO HAVING ME. I WAS ONLY 6 OR 7 YRS OLD. SHE TOLD ME SHE NEVER WANTED ME. IT STAYED WITH ME FOR A LONG TIME. I WALKED AROUND IN DISPAIR FOR A GREAT PART OF MY LIFE. MUCH WENT ON IN MY LIFE AS I GREW UP. ONE DAY DRAGGING MYSELF THOUGH LIFE I RAN ACROSS SOMEONE WHO HAD SIMILAR THINGS HAPPEN TO THEM. THERE IS WHERE I LEARNED EMPATHY. I UNDERSTOOD WHAT THEY HAD GONE THOURGH. I ALSO FELT SYMPATHY TOWARDS THEM AND CRYED WITH THEM I FELT THEIR PAIN FOR THEIRS WAS MUCH LIKE MY OWN. I KNEW FROM THAT MOMENT THAT I WAS NOT A MISTAKE LIKE MY MOM ALWAYS TOLD ME NOR WAS I USELESS. THAT MOMENT THAT DAY CHANGED MY LIFE. I FELT WORTH IN THIS WORLD ALL OF A SUDDEN. I MADE A PROMISE TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD GO ON WITH MY LIFE AND BE THERE FOR PEOPLE WHO NEEDED JUST SOMEONE TO WHISPER THEIR THOUGHTS TO. THEREFORE I AM HAPPY TO BE ABLE TO LOG ON TO THIS SITE AND JUST PUT MY FEELINGS DOWN. MAYBE JUST MAYBE SOME ONE WILL SEE THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS GREAT BIG WORLD OF OURS. NATURE HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FRIEND. I FOUND A HARMONY AND PEACE WITH MY BEING. SOMETIMES THAT BLACKNESS CREEPS BACK INTO MY BEING BUT, IT IS QUICKLY KICKED TO THE CURB WHERE IT BELONGS. SO, TRY TALKING TO YOURSELF AND BE THE VERY BEST YOU CAN BE EVERY WAKING MOMENT. LIFE IS SHORTER THEN YOU THINK... MUCH SUNSHINE AND PEACE SENT YOUR WAY...HAZELEYES
