Weblog of SLEEPYHAZELEYES

Mood: POSTIVE THINKING :}

 TODAY WAS JUST SO PEACEFUL. WELL AFTER WORK THAT IS. THE SUN WAS OUT THE AIR WAS WARM AND I AM IN SUCH A GREAT MOOD. I DECIDED TO TRY SOMETHING FOR ONE WEEK AND SEE IF IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE IN MY DAYS. I DECIDED INSTEAD OF GRUMBLING TO MYSELF,THAT I HAVE TO GET UP TO MY ALARM CLOCK AND DRIVE OFF TO WORK WHICH I CALL THE DRAMA TEAM.I WOULD TELL MYSELF TO RELAX AND SLEEP WELL. THEN WHEN I AWOKE I WOULD JUST GET UP AND GO AND NOT THINK OF ANYTHING THAT MIGHT GET ME UPSET ON MY WAY TO WORK. IF A THOUGHT CAME INTO MY HEAD I'D TURN MY CD UP AND JUST START SINGING ALONG WITH IT. WHO CARES WHAT I SOUND LIKE OR WHAT I LOOK LIKE EITHER. BESIDES THE SUN ISN'T UP WHEN I LEAVE ANYWAY. SO, I'VE BEEN DOING IT. I ALSO SAID I WILL HAVE A GOOD DAY AT WORK NO MATTER WHAT THE DRAMA IS . BELIEVE ME THERE IS ALWAYS SOME SORT OF DRAMA. I TELL EVERYONE THAT I COULD MAKE A SOAP OPERA OF WORK. I ALWAYS SAY TO HALF OF THEM YOUR OWN LIFE IS LIKE A SOAP OPERA SO WHY DO YOU WATCH THAT CRAP ON BREAK? I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND SOAP OPERAS. I MEAN REALLY THINK ABOUT THAT ONE. SOAP OPERA: ISN'T EVERYONE'S A LITTLE LIKE A SOAP OPERA. I DETEST SOAP OPERAS. THEY ARE A WASTE OF TIME. UNLESS YOU GET PAID TO ACT IN ONE. I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT ON THAT SUBJECT.

I NEVER LIKED SAYING AT HOME ALL THE TIME SO WHEN I'D GO TO WORK I DIDN'T LIKE BEING THERE EITHER. THIS REALLY CONFUSED ME. SO, I DID THIS TEST. I WOULD THINK OF WHY I DID NOT LIKE TO BE AT HOME. THAT WOULD ONLY BE IF I WAS ALONE. THEN I THOUGHT OF WHY WHEN I WAS AT WO RK I WANTED TO BE AT HOME. THAT WAS BECAUSE I NEEDED TO GET THINGS DONE AT HOME AND NEVER HAD THE TIME. I KNOW YOUR THINKING WHERE IN THE HELL IS THIS GOING. I AM NOT SURE. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I THROW ALOT OF POSTIVE THINKING INTO MY DAY. IT DOES WORK. I KNOW THAT SMILING WHEN YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE IT BECOMES CONTAGIOUS. I KNOW THAT DOING THE BEST THAT YOU CAN EVEN WHEN YOU WANT TO SAY F_ _K IT IS A GOOD THING.  BEFORE I GO INTO THAT DEEP SLEEP I TELL MYSELF THAT TOMORROW WILL BE A GREAT DAY NO MATTER WHAT. I WAKE UP AND DON'T KNOW IF I BELIEVE THAT OR NOT BUT SOON I RELIAZE THAT I AM STILL HALF A SLEEP AND THAT IS WHEN I FEEL NEGATIVE ABOUT WORKING AND WISH I COULD JUST STAY HOME.  SO IT IS A GOOD DAY. I HATE TO BE IN A BAD MOOD AT WORK BECAUSE OF SOMETHING AT HOME AND VISA VERSA. SO, I NEVER BRING MY JOB HOME AND NEVER BRING HOME TO WORK. IT REALLY WORKS. I AM NOT PERFECT AND THERE IS TIMES I JUST CAN NOT FIGHT IT. LIKE PMS TIME BUT,EVEN THEN I DO PRETTY GOOD.

WELL, THINGS WORKED OUT FOR MY CO-WORKER AND HER CHILD. SHE HAD A TALK WITH THE TEACHER AND TOLD HER A FEW THINGS. THEY BOTH SPOKE WITH THE CHILD AND IT TURNED OUT THAT THE CHILD DID NOT WANT TO MOVE AND WAS AFRAID THEY WOULD NOT HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE OR SLEEP. CHILDERN ARE SO FRAGILE. THEY WORRY MORE THEN WE'LL EVER KNOW.

I MUST GO NOW ....PEACEFUL DAYS AND HAPPY THOUGHTS  HAZELEYES