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Apr 7, 2005 at 00:06 o\clock

SMILE NOW IT COULD BE YOUR LAST SMILE....THINK ABOUT THAT.

Mood: I AM SMILING FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU CAN'T
Listening to: THE RYTHM OF MY SOUL

 GOOD DAY TO EVERYONE.  I RETURNED FROM WORK WITH A SIMPLE APPRECIATION OF LIFE. MOST OF US ARE SO BUSY... THINKING IN OUR OWN LITTLE SPHERE. LET ME ASK HAS ANYONE EVER LOOKED BEYOND THEIR OWN SPACE. I MEAN REALLY LOOK BEYOND YOUR SPACE THAT YOU INHABIT. WHEN YOU THINK YOUR LIFE IS GOING SO WRONG AND YOU HAVE NO DIRECTION,I SAY LOOK INWARD THEN LOOK AROUND YOU. LISTEN TO YOUR SOUL AND THE WIND THAT WHIRLS THE LEAVES AROUND. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO LOOK BEYOND YOURSELF AND SEE OTHERS YOU WILL BE AMAZED THAT EVEN IN YOUR DARKEST OF DARK MOMENTS YOU'LL BE ABLE TO SMILE. THINK "WHAT IF I NEVER SMILED TODAY AND SUDDENLY SOME TERRIBLE THING HAPPENED THAT YOU COULD NEVER SMILE OR COMMUNICATE WITH ANOTHER BEING. WHAT IF YOU HAD TO RELY ON YOUR OWN INNER SELF? THINK OF THE TERRIBLE HOLOCAUST OR 9-11. WHAT IF YOU LEFT FOR THE DAY AND NEVER SMILED AGAIN AND NEVER KNEW THIS WAS YOU'RE LAST CHANCE. A SMILE IS SO SIMPLE. A SMILE MAKES YOU AND OTHERS FEEL GOOD. FROM YOUR SMIPLE SMILE MAYBE A LITTLE GIGGLE MAY BREAK FORTH. I CHUCKLE TO MYSELF SO MANY TIMES A DAY. I SING OUTLOUD AND SOMETIMES I CATCH THE GLIMPSE OF ANOTHER WATCHING AND LISTENING AND THEN , THERE IT IS, A SMILE , LAUGH AND MAYBE A STRANGE LOOK. JUST TO THROW A LITTLE SUNSHINE ON TO THE NEXT PERSON IS A PRECIOUS GIFT. THE REASON FOR MY ENTRY TODAY IS MY FRIEND. SHE IS SO DEPRESSED AND DOWN ON HERSELF AND LIFE. I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE JUST A MOMENT IN HER DAY JUST A LITTLE BETTER. JUST A SMILE... THE RESPONCE A SMILE BACK. SHE WANTS TO DIE. I TELL HER SHE MUST LIVE... SHE HAS SO MUCH TO OFFER. SHE DOES NOT SEE IT. I COUNT OFF THE REASONS... I TELL HER MANY YEARS AGO I WANTED TO DIE AND COULD NOT FIND MY SMILE. THE JOURNEY WAS PAINFUL BUT, I MANAGED TO FIND MY SMILE. IT WAS BURIED SO DEEP IN MY HEART THAT NO ONE COULD FIND IT NOT EVEN MYSELF. I HAD TO SEARCH MYSELF AND FACE MYSELF AND THEN STAND TALL AND SMILE IN MY EMEMIE'S FACE. NEVER TO LET MY SMILE BECOME A FROWN OF DISAPEAR. A FELLOW-WORKER LOST HER BEST FRIEND TO CANCER YESTERDAY. I LISTENED WHILE SHE TOLD ME ALL ABOUT HER FRIEND. I LISTENED TO WHAT SHE WAS FEELING. I MADE THE TIME IN MY BUSY DAY JUST TO LISTEN AND BE THERE FOR HER. BY THE TIME SHE WAS DONE WE FOUND HER SMILE AND A GRATEFUL TEAR THAT THIS FRIEND OF HERS HAD GRACED HER LIFE. MY CO-WORKER WENT ON WITH HER DAY WITH A SMILE AND AN UNDERSTANDING OF JUST HOW GREAT LIFE IS AND HOW QUICKLY IT PASSES. AS I SAID GOOD BYE TO MY FELLOW-WORKERS SHE HAD A SMILE STILL AND MY DEPRESSED FRIEND SEEMED JUST A LITTLE, AND I MEAN A LITTLE, HAPPIER. I AM NO MIRACLE WORKER BUT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MUCH IN MY LIFE TIME. WHAT I 'VE LEARNED SO FAR. IS NEVER TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED. BE AS HAPPY AND CHEERFUL AS YOU CAN EACH DAY. HEY, NO ONES PERFECT, NOT EVEN ME. BUT I DO PRACTICE WHAT I SAY. SO .... SMILE A LITTLE SMILE TODAY AND LOOK OUTSIDE YOUR SPHERE AND MAYBE JUST MAYBE YOU'LL SEE THE BEAUTY AMONGST THE RUBBLE. AS FOR MYSELF TODAY WAS BUSY AND I AM GRATEFUL TO COME HOME. MY SPOUSE AND I CHATTED ABOUT OUR DAYS. WE SAT OUTSIDE IN THE BRIGHT SUNLIGHT AND SNAPPED PICTURES OF THE WONDER OF NATURE IN OUR BACKYARD. OH YEAH, OF ONE ANOTHER ALSO IN THE GOLDEN RAYS OF THE EVER PLEASING SUN......JUST REMEMBER IF YOU CAN DREAM IT,ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE  SO SMILE........GOOD DAY TO ALL AND SMILE HAZELEYES

Apr 6, 2005 at 00:09 o\clock

SUNSHINE ON MY SHOULDERS

Mood: GRATEFUL
Listening to: NATURE OUTSIDE MY WINDOW

HELLO EVERYONE. TODAY WAS AND IS STILL A BEAUTIFUL DAY. STARTED OUT FOR WORK ABOUT 5 AM AND THE CHILL OF THE NIGHT WAS STILL CLINGING ON. AS THE DAY DAWNED AND THE SUN ROSE IT GOT WARMER. VERY SLOWLY THE COLORS OF DAWN ON THE HORIZON BLOOMED LIKE A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER. IT WARMS MY SOUL TO SEE THE SUN COME UP AND TO BE ABLE TO GREET THE NEW DAY. I SANG ALL THE WAY TO WORK. I ALWAYS TELL MYSELF THAT EVEN IF THINGS LOOK GLOOMY RIGHT NOW THE SUN DOES COME OUT. I THINK THANK GOODNESS I HAVE MY HEALTH AND A JOB. I WILL HAVE A GOOD DAY AT WORK NO MATTER WHAT ARISES AND I DO TRY AS HARD AS I MIGHT TO STICK TO THAT. I KNOW THAT YOU CAN MAKE YOUR DAY WHATEVER YOU WISH. IF THINGS DO NOT GO AS PLANNED YOU CAN TAKE MANY ROADS . I GOT TO WORK AND FOUND OUT MY PARTNER WAS NOT COMING IN. AT THAT VERY MOMENT I COULD WALK THE PATH OF DISMAY AND UTTER UNGODLY THINGS OR JUST START OFF AT THE OTHER PATH AND SING WITHIN MY SOUL AND JUST SMILE. I CHOSE TO DO THAT. BEFORE I KNEW IT, IT WAS BREAK TIME 9AM. WOW, THINGS ARE GOING GREAT. HAD MY BREAK  WITH SOMEONE AND DIDN'T EVEN THINK "OH MY GOD IT'S ONLY 9AM." I START AT 5:45 AND NOW IT WAS 9AM. MY DAY WAS NOT EVEN HALF OVER YET. I STILL WAS HAVING A GREAT DAY. I ALWAYS TRY TO DO THE BEST JOB THAT I CAN. MY BOSS CAME OVER TO ME AND TOLD ME TO MAKE SOMETHING A PRIORITY AND IT NEEDED TO BE DONE BEFORE 11AM. NOW AGAIN I COULD OF TAKEN A PATH THAT WOULD OF KILLED MY MOOD. ALACK AND ALAS I JUST SMILED AND SAID "SURE, THAT IS NO PROBLEM" NOW I KNOW MY PARTNER IF SHE WAS ALONE LIKE I SHE WOULD OF MOANED AND GROANED TO EVERYONE ABOUT HOW SHE IS ALONE AND IT IS NOT FAIR THAT SHE HAS TO DO DOUBLE THE WORK BLAH, BLAH, BLAH......SHE WOULD OF CHOSEN THE OTHER PATH. ME, I GOT RIGHT ON IT. IT WAS DONE IN NO TIME FLAT. I WENT BACK TO WHAT I HAD TO DO BEFORE THIS PATH AROSE. BEFORE I KNEW IT ,IT WAS LUNCH. I DASHED OUT TO MY CAR . I USUALLY EAT WITH  MY FELLOW WORKERS BUT, TODAY WAS JUST SO SUNNY AND BRIGHT, I COULDN'T EAT INSIDE. MY SOUL SOAKED UP THE WARMTH OF MY WARM CAR. THE SUN HAD SHONE IN AS IF JUST FOR ME. I RELISHED MY HALF HOUR BREAK. I HAD BEEN REFRESHED FROM MY TIME ALONE IN MY CAR. I WATCHED PEOPLE WALK BY, ROBINS HUNT FOR THEIR LUNCH, A BUSY SQUIRREL RUNNING WITH SOMETHING IN ITS MOUTH AND SPOKE TO MY SPOUSE FOR A FEW. OH, THOSE PRECIOUS MOMENTS THAT YOU MAKE IN YOUR MIND. I WENT BACK TO THE BUILDING TOOK THE ELEVATOR UP TO THE TOP AND BEGAN MY NEXT PART OF MY DAY. I HAD PLANS TO GET MY HAIRCUT RIGHT AFTER WORK. THE SALON IS ON MY WAY HOME. THE REST OF THE DAY WENT WITHOUT A HITCH. GRABBED MY STUFF AND DOWN THE ELEVATOR I WENT. THE SUN WAS STILL THERE. THE WARM BREEZE WAS JUST WAITING TO GREET ME AS I WENT TOWARDS MY CAR. I ALWAYS TAKE A BREATH AND LOOK TO THE SUN JUST TO FEEL THE WARM RAYS THAT SURROUND MY BEING. OFF I WENT. SINGING OF COURSE UNTIL I GOT TO THE SALON AND GOT MY HAIRCUT. IT WAS NICE AGAIN TO SEE THE PERSON WHO CUTS MY HAIR ETC.. WE ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SHARE WITH EACH OTHER. I SAID MY GOOD BYES AND OFF TO WHERE I AM NOW. THE SUN IS STILL OUT . THE BIRDS I FEED ARE ALL THERE FOR THEIR LAST MEAL AND I AM CONTENT JUST TO BE. GOOD DAY FOR NOW... UNTIL WE MEET UP AGAIN... HAZELEYES    

Apr 5, 2005 at 19:36 o\clock

wOW ANOTHER NICE DAY!!!

Mood: QUIET

I GOT HOME FROM WORK TODAY AND HOPPED IN THE SHOWER AND TOOK MY DOG FOR A WALK. IT WAS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL DAY. MY CRAZY DOG THINKS HE'S THE BEST THING COMING AND GOING. HE IS SO FUNNY. HE PRANCES DOWN THE DRIVEWAY,HEAD HELD HIGH WITH A STICK OR WHATEVER HE CAN GRAB FAST AS WE START OUR WALK.IT COULD EVEN BE THE LEASH THAT'S ATTACHED TO HIM. IF ANOTHER DOG WALKS BY HE DROPS HIS STICK OR WHATEVER AND STARES THEM DOWN AS WE WALK. IF THEY GET TO CLOSE HIS HAIR STANDS ON END . HE THINKS HE'S ALL THAT AND MORE. I TAKE HIM TO A SPOT THAT HE LIKES. I UNLEASH HIM AND HE RUNS LIKE A HORSE. YES I SAID HORSE. HE ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE THIS BIG BLACK HORSE GALLOPING ALL AROUND. HE EVEN REARS UP AND SHOWS YOU HIS TEETH LIKE A HORSE. I HAVEN'T A CLUE WHAT HE THINKS HE'S DOING. HE LOVES TO WEAR BANDANA'S. HE HAS SO MANY DIFFERENT ONES IT NOT EVEN FUNNY. HE'S HAD THEM ON SINCE HE WAS A PUP. HE IS GOING ON 5 YEARS NOW.

WORK WAS WORK AS USALL. A LITTLE HECTIC TODAY. I AM TIRED AND I STILL GOT 2 MORE DAYS OF WORK BEFORE THE WEEKEND. IT WILL BE MOTHERS DAY! HAPPY MOTHERS DAYS TO EVERY MOM OUT THERE. JUST IN CASE I DON'T GET TO SAY IT OVER THE WEEKEND.!!!!!! Mother's Day BasketWELL HAVE A NICE DAY US MOM'S DESERVE IT.....

I NEED TO PLANT A FEW FLOWERS OUT IN FRONT OF OUR HOUSE. I LOVE FLOWERS. I DON'T REALLY LIKE TO RECIEVE FLOWERS. THEY DIE SO FAST. I LIKE ONES THAT STAY ALIVE INSIDE OR I CAN PLANT THEM IN MY GARDENS.

MY GRANDBABY IS SO CUTE. SHE'S TRYING TO WALK. SHE NOW CAN DRINK OUT OF HER BIG GIRL CUP. NOT A SIPPIE CUP EITHER. JUST A REGULAR CUP IF HER MOM HOLDS IT FOR HER. IF SHE DOESN'T HOLD IT FOR HER SHE GETS A BATH. HA HA.I FIGURED I'D GIVE EVERYONE AN UP DATE ON MY GRANDBABY.

THE TRUE TEST OF CHARACTER....IS HOW WE BEHAVE WHEN WE DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.      ____JOHN HOLT

 AS YOU KNOW I JUST LIKE QUOTES. THEY ALWAYS HELP ME THRU THE DAY. WELL, I MUST BE ON MY WAY. I NEED TO GO FILL UP MY BIRDFEEDERS THEY [THE BIRDS] MUST OF HAD EVERYONE AND THEIR UNCLE OVER FOR LUNCH AND DINNER TODAY. I NEED TO FILL UP FOR THEIR BREAKFAST BOUT...HAVE A GREAT EVENING....HAZELEYES........

 







Apr 5, 2005 at 01:45 o\clock

I JUST DON'T KNOW WHERE IT WENT

Mood: QUIET AND THINKING

 HELLLO ,,,,, I JUST WROTE A WHOLE PAGE AND NOW I DON'T KNOW WHERE IT WENT. I TRYED TO PUBLISH IT AND IT SAID IT WAS BUT, I SAW SOMETHING I NEED TO CORRECT AND HIT EDIT, I FIXED IT AND THEN HIT PUBLISH AGAIN AND IT IS NOT THERE. I WONDER WERE IT WENT? THAT JUST  ISN'T RIGHT. OH WELL. I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO RETYPE WHAT I WROTE. SO, I WILL LEAVE YOU WITH THE QUOTE THAT I DID WRITE ON THE PAGE I SOMEHOW LOST. IT MUST HAVE BEEN BEAMED UP BY THE MOTHERSHIP OR SOMETHING.

THE TRUE TEST OF CHARACTER IS.....HOW WE BEHAVE WHEN WE DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO..  ____JOHN HOLT

I GUESS THIS IS A TEST OF MY CHARACTER... OH WELL HAVE A GREAT EVENING.......  HAZELEYES.....

Apr 4, 2005 at 19:54 o\clock

NEXT PICTURE FROM MY CELL PHONE LAST SUMMER

Mood: BUTTERFLIE ON MY MARIGOLDS

Apr 4, 2005 at 19:51 o\clock

SOME OF MY PHOTO FROM MY CAMERA PHONE

Mood: MY SUNFLOWER

 PICTURES FROM MY CELL PHONE LAST SUMMER

Apr 4, 2005 at 18:38 o\clock

RAINY DAY

Mood: TRANQUIL
Listening to: THE SOFT SOUND OF THE RAIN

 WELL HERE I AM ONCE AGAIN. GOT UP LATE FOR ME. NO WORK TODAY. MY DAY OFF. THE RAIN HAS SIMMERED DOWN. I HAVE A SMALL LAKE FORMING IN BY BACK YARD. OUR HOUSE IS UP ON A HILL SO TO SPEAK.THE BIRDS THAT I FEED ALL YEAR ROUND COME AND BATH IN THE LAKE THAT HAS FORMED. THEY ARE REALLY FUNNY TO WATCH. THEY EACH HAVE THEIR OWN SCHUDULE OF EVENTS. SOME COME IN EARLY MORNING JUST BEFORE THE SUN HAS BROKEN ON THE HORIZON. OTHERS COME AFTERNOON TIME AND OTHERS FLOCK AT DUSK. THEY SING THE SONGS OF SPRING AND THE COMING SUMMER. THEY GET BUSY BUILDING ALL SORTS OF NESTS FOR THEIR NEW OFFSPRINGS. BUSY CARRYING PIECES OF TWIGS AND GRASS. I BRUSHED MY DOG AND LEFT SOME OF HIS HAIRTUFFS ON THE GROUND ONLY TO SEE A BIRD CARRY IT OFF TO MAKE A BED FOR HER EGGS. THE THINGS BIRDS FIND FOR THEMSELVES.  WE EVEN HAVE A BIRD THAT SITS IN THE TREE HIGH UP NEAR MY WINDOW AND SINGS IT'S LITTLE HEART OUT ALL NIGHT LONG. SOMETIMES I CAN NOT SLEEP SOMETIMES BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON EVERY YEAR THIS BIRD COMES BACK FROM WHERE EVER IT GOES TO THIS TREE. MY FAVIOTE OF ALL BIRDS ARE CHICKADEES. THEY ARE FAST LITTLE THINGS. THEY LOVE TO MUNCH ON SUNFLOWER SEEDS. THERE IS ONE OR TWO THAT TRUST ME. WHEN I GO TO FILL THE FEEDERS THEY ARE RIGHT THERE CHIRPING AWAY ON THE BRANCH ABOVE MY HEAD. AS IF TO SAY"HURRY WE ARE HUNGERY!" THEY MAKE NO EFFORT TO MOVE. I TALK TO THEM SOFTLY AND LOOK AT THEM, I THINK THEY UNDERSTAND I WOULD NEVER HARM THEM AND THAT I AM HAPPY TO SEE THEM. NEXT THING I LOOK FOR WHEN MY FLOWERS BLOOM ARE BUTTERFLIES AND HUMMINGBIRDS. I PLANT SPECIAL FLOWERS JUST FOR THEM. I HAVE TAKE MANY PHOTOS OF BUTTERFLIES ON MY FLOWERS ALONG WITH BUBBLEBEES. MOST PEOPLE KNOW THAT I LOVE NATURE. WARM SUMMERDAYS WITH A GENTLE BREEZE . I LOVE THE RUSSELING OF THE LEAVES ON MY BERCH TREES AND MAPLE TREES. THE SMELL OF FRESH CUT GRASS AND PEOPLE COOKING ON THEIR GRILLS. I AM SO IN TUNE WITH NATURE IT MAKES ME CRY SOMETIMES. THINGS ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND PEOPLE NEVER STOP TO LOOK UP AT THE CLOUDS AND HOW FLUFFY THEY ARE AGAINST THE BLUE SKY. TO LOOK AND SEE HOW BUSY AN ANT IS CARRYING ITS HEAVY LOAD BACK TO IT'S NEST. TO WATCH THE BABY RABBITS LEARN HOW TO HOP AND FOLLOW THEIR MOM. OH HOW WONDERFUL THE WORLD IS! WE ARE JUST SO BUSY WITH LIFE'S OTHER ISSUES THAT WE SEEM TO FORGET THE SIMPLE THINGS. A SMILE TO SOMEONE WHO SEEMS DOWN. A SIMPLE " HELLO, HOW ARE YOU" AND JUST TAKE THE TIME TO REALLY LISTEN TO THAT PERSON. IT MAY MAKE THEIR DAY. THE WORLD HAS ALOT OF TERRIBLE THINGS IN IT BUT, THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY ARE SO SIMPLE. SOMETIMES PEOPLE JUST HAVE TO STOP THEIR WHIRLWIND LIVES AND LOOK AROUND. LOOK AT THINGS IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT. I LOVE NATURE,LOVE TO WRITE POEMS, AND JUST WRITE MY THOUGHTS DOWN. I HOPE IF ANYONE DOES READ THIS THEY WILL FEEL JUST ALITTLE BIT BETTER IF THEY ARE DOWN. MAYBE THEY WILL SEE THINGS JUST A LITTLE DIFFERENT EVEN IF IT'S JUST WHILE THEY ARE READING THIS.     CALL ME HAZELEYES!!!!!! GOOD DAY ALL.....