Madness

Mood: Lucky....Lucky
Listening to: Gossip on a Harlot

Just got paid for 15 days of work.....not fairly an enough amount of compensation for several ailments that I have recently been going through.  Since I have started working for this call center, my ears acquired a constant buzzing sound that aggravates my migraines. Weirdly enough my stress level hikes up whenever I am in my station, attending to calls that seem to be endless.  Add to that the feeling is the extreme effort to schedule the so called "call of nature".  I find myself cooped up in the ladies room just trying to wait it out....but again that is too much information....lolzzz

In my head I calculated the approximate amount that I need to have just to reach the next payday.  P2,000 for one of our 'yaya's' salary (my husband and I split the cost nowadays, he pays for the other 'yaya's' salary),  groceries in the max amount of P1,500, a debt that I owe a certain helpful skinny bald-headed guy P500, 10 kilos of rice for P250 and P1,000/week for food for two weeks........Oooohh all that math is driving me nuts....it also apparently drove my finances to the other side of the fence....to think that I only got around 4,800 for the trouble....dare I calculate still?

I treated myself to eating out with friends today...the only luxury that I could afford is a rice meal from a chinese restaurant that includes steamed rice, one sunny side up egg, a slice of chicken boiled in leeks and minced ginger, 2 slices of pork braised in soysauce and sugar and a mixture of vegetebles we call chopsuey. A feast but I asked for an extra cup of rice....not gluttony, filipinos eat like that even with our petite physique.  To top it all off..coffee...a nice ending for a bountiful brunch.

Hope that I could find myself not scrimping on money for myself next payday.  Wish list for next payday: 1. Experience a foot spa in one of the trendy salons in the city's biggest mall. 2. Eat out at Yellow Cab...pizzaaaaa 3. Treat my husband to a warm cuppa coffee in Starbucks.  I have to be real here so am cutting the wishes to just three.

As of this moment....my financial status is of no consequence...in desperation...I pored over back issues of magazines looking for ways on how to increase my dwindling income...just to see an article on a previous winner of a local lottery ticket...how lucky!!!

Reminder to self:  Buy 2 valid tickets for the next local lottery draw....if budget permits....If not ask hubby to buy the tickets.

Mood: optimistically hopeful
Listening to: Clinking Coins

Now you must be wondering why I have two titles up on this article......not really sure but it beats flipping a coin and choosing one that best describes my ineffectual bid at thriftiness...

Last night at exactly 8:15pm...i burrowed through the usual mess I had on my tiny purse....last months payslip..the previous months cable bill...my usual grocery bills stacked in an ungainly fashion looking for some hidden (how i wish) money.  No paper bills surfaced....not even a lowly 20 peso bill showed up.....Darn it....now i have to live with a few measly coins that i dredged up from the cookie jar and from my medicine cabinet.  Hah!!!  Lotsa good it'll do me.

Good thing payday is early this morning.  Pathetic as it seems...I actually had to trade in a few dollars just to make sure that I make it till my next payday.

Its just that everything that might happen disastrously did.  My head is pounding right now on how to make ends meet. My househelp just hooked up a 110 volt 27" television on a 220 volt powersource. What do you expect would happen...without cartoon network my kids would die.....i would too (imagine the chaos).  I had to shell out 1,800 bucks to make sure that its up and working in 2 days. Dana and Leila...my eldest and second daughter is going to be recognized next weekend....being with honors have some perks...my kids does not let me forget that.

Back to the grindstone for me.....the urge to splurge does not stop...because the responsibility basically goes on and on...but how can a pocketful of coins fill up the difference????   I wonder..................