So depressed...
Mood: Depressed/Mad
Listening to: Bee 93.7
Sorry I haven't been writing lately but I had lots of homework bogging me down. But today I'm depressed. I don't know why but I'm upset about something but I haven't a clue of what it could be. I guess it started sometime around lunch time. Wait, no. It was during PLTW (a class I take) when Sean started being really mean to me. (Sean is supposedly my friend.) He wanted to help me with this project but I knew how to do it perfectly fine. I didn't need his help. But he insisted. So I tried to tell him I didn't need his help. He didn't listen. So in the mean time while I'm sitting there watching him screw my project up I'm getting really mad. Then I finnally say to him that he has messed it up and pointed out where. Then he turns to me and YELLS "FINE THEN! DO IT YOURSELF!!!" I was sitting there thinking, I've been asking to for 30 minutes. Duh! So then I was all upset cause someone yelled at me. I hate it when people yell at me. It makes me feel so small and stupid and like a piece of crap. So then when I was going to my next class, I wasn't talking to Sean, he catches up to me and goes "Your mad at me aren't you?" How stupid can you be!!! I'm a girl and I have sensitive feelings! Duh I'm mad!!! But I just said "No,....I'm not mad at you." But the rest of the day I felt so bad. I just felt like crap. But at the end of the day in English, Jake Black actually figured out I was depressed. He is probably the only boy or even person who figured out that I felt bad. He goes "What's wrong Ashley? Why are you so depressed?" I was thinking, how in the world did you know I was depressed? But instead I said "What are you talking about? I'm not depressed." But I actually admire that he actually knew that I was depressed. 'Cause I always try to put this mask on like I feel all happy and hyper and stuff when I feel bad. I was surprised he could see through that. I wish I could just punch Sean in the face or something. It's so wierd how sensitive girl's feelings are. That's why people should be cautious to what they say and do to a person. Hopefully I will feel better by tomorrow.
